Thread 25. TTC #1 - February Fertility Fighters on the FRONTLINE

[AlexiaB]

Calling all OPK-ers, Temp-ers, Clomid-ers, Femara-ers, IUI-ers, IVF-ers and anyone else on the TTC #1 Bus.

We've been going a while now so the novelty has somewhat worn off and we're slightly battle scarred and bruised in the cervix area. We've ditched the Gregorian calendar in favour of the TTC Cycle Day calendar, and we don't get a lot of baby dust in these here parts, we just keep it legs spread and fingers crossed (LSFX). We love a baby bomb from a prior bus-mate but if we get told to 'just relax and enjoy it' ONE MORE TIME you will get a punch in the face!

We have a new Grad's Thread. We recently lost a whole load of ttc veterans to the good side and we're absolutely desperate to join in the fun! May 2017 lead us all to upduffed heaven and the Grad's thread, amen.

We don't have rules as such but expect to be talked down from the ledge with kind but firm words if you get too hysterical. But most importantly, don't convince yourself that you're pregnant in the tww. That is paramount!

Hop on board, post your stats and prepare to be dazzled by the wealth of TTC knowledge we long-timeys have to share...

kaydee

Here's a pic from this morning. It's so faint though I feel silly posting it!
Also, I'm starting to doubt if a line appeared within the 3 minute time slot or not. So I don't know if it means anything! Argghhg this is torture!

It's faint but it's there colour! I forgot how many dpo you are...

theres definitely a line there colour!

Colour that looks positive to me? Congrats.

Kaydee - oh no, AF sucks!!!!

Skipper - sorry to hear this..... I'll still
Keep my fingers crossed for you.
I think I might have started with the brown spotting before AF too, I've had a bit when I've wiped sometimes over the last two days and other times it's completely clear. I just can't work it out.

I feel totally, totally drained by all of this. I know I'm fairly new to the game but I absolutely thought I was pg this month and was waiting for my BFP to show today. I know af hasn't got me totally yet but I think it's just a matter of time.

Hugs to everyone - it's been a mixed emotions kinda day!

Oh Kwick I posted before reading your message I am so sorry! This is absolute bullshit and there are no words!

11DPO Flash I haven't mentioned to DP yet I want to have a darker test to show him. Will test again on sat morning and hopefully there will be a line!

Oh Kwick I'm so sorry for you. There are no words. I'm in tears here. Thinking of you & sending you a big hug xxxxxxx

Thank you Mouse 😍 I've been meaning to reply to your pm for ages, please accept my apologies. You have not been far from my thoughts. Sending you big hugs. That must have been gutting to hear that news today. I guess all you can do is focus on yourself and your health for now and hope that this will result in a quick bfp and healthy bub. It's okay to be sad and angry but you're one of the strongest people I know so I know you will get through this with the love and support from your family (and us)

Hep sorry that sucks.

colour that is 100% positive. Congrats! You will see line progression if you test again tomorrow.

Skipper I truly hope af isn't coming but I know that sinking feeling. Unfortunately we've been here far too often! Big hugs xxx

kwick I can't stop thinking about you. I'm sooo sad so I can only imagine how crushed you are. I'm so sorry

Sorry Kaydee

Bluebell ttc is all consuming and emotionally draining no matter where you're at in your journey. Wishing you a swift bfp

Congrats on your lovely scan Star

Great PMA Flash. I need to work on this this cycle. Right... I'm thankful to have the best DH in the world and I'm grateful to have a nice warm home and financial stability. I'm happy today because I bought Lady Gaga tickets for October. Even though ttc is completely shit we all have a lot to be thankful for, which can be hard to remember in those deep, dark moments we all have.

Thank you all so much for your lovely comments 💕
mouselove sorry I have not PMed you - working off phone and not sure how to so it from here.
I was going to let nature take its course but over on my donor iui thread shoes has said I should get the recurrence tested so will probably go to EPU in the morning.
flash I have spent the afternoon catching up on The Halcyon and thinking how lucky I am compared to those in second world war - does that count?
Suppose I should ring my mum... texted her earlier... know I will just cry down the phone and she will worry more.

Sorry for putting such a downer on the thread. Remember I am the geriatric element here - you lot have no need to fear and all your BFPs are just around the corner.

And in the words of Evita: don't cry for me MN

I'm thankful to own a lovely home with pleasant neighbours. I'm thankful for a loving and supportive family, and a strong and level headed OH. And I'm thankful for the support I have been given from friends, family, consultants and you terrible lot on here :) don't know what I'd do without any of this.

Colour - it's not really a squinter, can see it perfectly. Congratulations! Xx

Yoga today, that will piss the witch off - ha ha.

Kwick do not apologise for putting a downer on the thread! You have not done that at all. We're all so invested in your journey and we feel your pain! Call your mum and have a good old cry. She loves you and you need her right now. This is not easy in the slightest. I'm glad you have a plan for tomorrow but I'm deeply sorry this is your reality. Your strength and attitude amaze me xxx

kwick you have not put a downer anywhere. You are so loved on this thread, you're such a strong supportive woman. We all wanted this for you so much and are here to support you.

Thanks ladies! Not as down as I should be really but knowing that there was a 0.1% chance I just wanted AF to appear so we can get going again lucky cycle number 3 anyone??

On the feeling thankful thing, today it's that DH gets me and when I texted him to say AF was here he just replied 'pub?'

Definitely agree we are more than overdue lots of sticky BFPs on this thread - fertility gods, whenever you are ready??!!

Oh and colour congrats - definitely a line

mouse so sorry for your news. As others have said you need to focus on your health right now to prepare you body for a healthy sticky bean.
I had hyperthyroidism about 6 years ago and it was controlled really quickly with meds and it's now totally fine. You'll get there.

Kwick - it's not a downer, we all wanted to know either way. I just wish we could be celebrating with you instead. You're not giving up right? We need you Kwick to lead us all to fertility and beyond!!!

I agree with Alexia, you don't need to apologise at all kwick. This whole TTC thing has really been a lesson to me in not to take anything for granted and I hope, if nothing else, it will make me more empathetic towards others in a similar situation. I'm so in awe and inspired by the strength of you and of all the women on this thread who are struggling. On the whole, I've led a relatively charmed life but you never know how strong you are until you are tested.

kwick sending you love. I can't believe this has happened. Xx

My positivity. I have a gorgeous, sweet dh (who was my only ever boyfriend so literally my one & only in every way) & we own a nice cottage with a dog, cat and chickens and so we already have a little family.

I've spent all day catching up from page 20, what a Rollercoaster. Laughing at the pepper baby bomb and the hysterical cucumber and now hearing your news kwick. I'm devastated for you. You are the comic relief on here, witty and kind, full of advice and knowledge, always sunny and positive. I'm so sorry

Such a nice thing to say gaelach you got me crying again.
The nurse today said how Susan the phlebotomist had asked that they scan me as I was not holding up so good and how unusual it was that everyone seems to know my name. I said its because I have been coming here so much and she no its due to my personality- I am warm and welcoming. I shall take heart in that whilst I wish I could right every wrong and basically get violent.

Kwick she's right, you're such a character I'm not surprised they all know you. I know this will hit you hard but your strength has come across here in droves. We are all here for you and willing you on 🌸🌷🌼

Kavan no need to feel guilty, it's complete chance who conceives and when. Glad everything is well pregnancy wise and hopefully otherwise with you

Really hope you can get your thyroid normal as soon as possible mouse , keep us posted. Are they putting you on new meds ?

Kath well done on getting through the scan, fx for your results. That is so true about not knowing your own strength until it's tested

Great news on your egg pug fx for an extra celebration on your anniversary

Sorry about AF kaydee , if I were you I would count today as day one

Skipper really hoping that's not AF

Flash that's a lovely idea. Ummm well of the top of my head my cat gives me so much happiness and love, I love my DH (although we seem to fall out a lot at the moment 😕) and I've just signed up for an 8k run so am going to be running again soon too! How is your running going?

Also I know this is ridiculous but I saw an instagram post of a hot cross bun earlier and it made me feel instantly happy. I fucking love hot cross buns!

Congratulations colour ! Hope that line is darker tomorrow - please post another in the morning?

I've just spent an hour reading the parking thread. Best thread ever written!!

kwick you are in no way a downer. And today you can feel as mad and as miserable as you like. You don't have to justify how you feel or not. when you're ready, just remember to remind yourself how great you are, and whatever is great in your life that you have achieved.

Loving the PMA girls! Keep it coming!

london running is good, run home 2 miles every day from work this week, partly to avoid a panic attack, but I'm still seeing it as a positive. Haven't done a 5 k in a while so hopefully do that soon.

I'm also happy for my beautiful home, wonderful DH and family!

Jam I love hot cross buns too!

Kwick do not even start to think that! We all are here for you in our virtual support land!!

Flash love the positive thinking - I've been on a right downer all day (although af still isn't here just occasional brown cm when I wipe). Let's go with 'I'm happy because I have a great job, a beautiful house, and a wonderful and very supportive DH' ☺️