hi, every body, as I new here I’ve never write for such forums/ the fact that I want to tell you my story, sorry for my mistakes.I hope somebody can help me. My name is Lainie, I’m 38 year old/ When I was young I’ve got married. My honeymoon was perfect and I thought my life with my love will be like this but , you know as it said don’t judge the book by its cover. The same was my life. After some time I’ve got pregnant, the air was full of happiness and love/ but my child died inside me, on his 2nd week, I was crashed in small pieces/ But my husband supported me and after some tome I’ve got pregnant again. the doctor said that everything was going great so hoped it to be great/ on 22 week of my pregnancy I suddenly felt that my bady didn’t move/ My husband drove me to the hospital and again. the doctor said – he is dead, he made an artificial birth. After that I had a lot of problems, especially mental, caused I already started to love my baby. I didn’t want to live and other bad things, my life become empty.
After 3 years I’ve got pregnant again, I really didn’t want to be, but God knows all and he decided to give me this baby. I was careful all the time, ate healthy food, slept enough only positive vibes.
You’ve lost your baby, I hate this words, I wanted to kill my doc, how could say this. It was the last drop in my cup, I told my husband that I didn’t want to have children anymore, never again
My uterus was in terrible scars, also began to grow fibroids. I thought worse can’t be. I had a constant depression, bad mood all the time. My husband was on the verge of collapse.
My sister advised me to try surrogacy on my own eggs but find a donor for me/ It was like a breath of fresh air. I started to read about it, but I don’t know how’s it like to be, I mean the searching the place, right people, conditions.
I’m worrying about it, if someone can help me I will be very grateful/ thank you in advance