im being an idiot im sure of it

[lookingtobeachildminder]

on 30th july I had a miscarriage. I didn't see a doctor I just knew (pretty obvious to be fair). I was nearly 10 weeks pregnant.

my head and body seems to have only just recovered slightly. I could face telling my partner (he didn't know I was pregnant because we split up before I found out I was expecting, I planned to tell him when I was 13 weeks.
we got back together a about a month ago. I told him straight away I was pregnant and lost the baby.

I again haven't told him this, hed think I was neurotic and just plain nuts!
ive been trying to loose weight for ever. I don't gain ususally but don't loose also (im ish ok with this. as long as I don't gain!) im still gaining weight steadily almost fast. I don't weigh myself. but all my clothes that was to big for me is now tight. my back is killing me. im still having periods, they are shorter and a LOT lighter than they were before.

I wont see my GP as I loath doctors. I wont talk to my partner as he wouldn't get it. hes old school womans issues are womens (only because he doesn't get it not that he doesn't care if that makes sence).

twins are in his family and mine. im wondering if I was expecting twins, lost 1 and am still carrying one??

am I being an idiot

You cannot carry on agonising over what if. You sound like you are driving yourself crazy. First things first, go and get a pregnancy test. Of course the situation you presented is possible but very unlikely. You need someone to talk to and support you. Have you disclosed this to any of your friends?

Had you not seen a midwife or anyone yet before the mc if you were 10 weeks? I really think you need to get checked out, if not just for your own sanity, but also because it can be really dangerous if you didn't get rid of everything in the mc you could get very ill. I'm sorry you've been through this and it must have been very hard if you went through it alone but I really think you need to get checked over to check. Also like thingy said, do another test and go from there. Best wishes for you. However, it's very common for periods to go a bit crazy after a mc for a few months til everything settles down again, don't forget your hormones would have been all over the place if you were 10 weeks gone.

Moonlight is right. You need to get checked. I hope you don't mind me asking but... why do you loath doctors? I've been through a mc this week and all the health professionals I've seen have been marvellous

Have you not taken a pregnancy test? That would be the obvious first step.

If you were planning on keeping the baby, which by your comment about waiting until 13 weeks to tell your partner I thought that you were then you need to visit GP? surely this situation is the same?

You need to check if you re still pregnant, at least do a test?

Hi lookingtobeachildminder, any news? Hope you're ok