By the time you've read this I will prob have been carried off by the men in white coats!
I keep playing mind games with myself re: getting pregnant. For example, convincing myself I'm infertile (!) and refusing to acknowledge I could be for fear of jinxing it. I have even flat refused to admit this month that we had sex at all the right times and could be. I'm still convinced I missed ovulation despite sex everyday for a week. DP's home sperm testing kit was a good result and I already have a daughter but I just cannot think rationally. I even thought about buying opk's to trick myself into thinking I can use them next month. Am I mad? I just cannot think positively at all. I feel like if I do it will all go wrong. I'm a firm believer in the opposite of what you want to happen, will happen!
Even all this week waiting for Mrsmc's BFP every time I read on the threads people saying 'how can you not be?' and 'you definitely must be pg' I got all panicky cos I thought it had all been jinxed!
Does anybody else do the same? By the way, I'm not hearing voices!!
I really hope I'm not the only person who thinks like this cos think DP will get me sectioned.