I feel like BANGING MY F***ING HEAD off a BRICK WALL!!!

[broodypsycho]

I literally just don't know how to handle this and my feelings any more. 14 months of unexplained infertility. I came on this morning after my 2nd round of clomid. I went for my first NHS appointment today and they didn't know i was coming! After been passed through 5 different departments I managed to get my initial consultation in OCTOBER. I'm losing the will!! Just moving into a new house this weekend got bills up my bump and I can't afford to pay 750 pound for private IUI!! I just feel like taking a sh*t load of crack or heroin so I can just numb everything out. Rant over

I'm sorry Broody that you're feeling this way. I've only been TTC for 7 months so only half the time you have and I def feel completely defeated somedays.
I think everyone has ups and downs, unfortunately waiting now and not knowing is out of your control which is crap.
It is extremely frustrating that you're being passed to different departments and not getting anywhere fast!

I can't make you feel any better but I can send you and . We are also on cycle 14 and I am awaiting af arrival tomorrow or Sunday. We also don't have any answers yet as to why. We see the fertility doctor for the first time on 12th July after a consultation with a nurse a couple of weeks ago. I know how hard it is month after month. Last month I was absolutely devastated when af turned up. After I had finished af I found some optimism and we tried the smep this time. I don't know if it has worked yet. Somehow I managed to drag my sorry ass out of the gutter and carry on.
Can I ask what tests you have had so far?