We've been trying to conceive number 2 for over a year now, and we have had 2 MC along the way, one MMC at 11 weeks, which was horrible. We started trying again seriously last December, as it took me several months to get over the D&C and to feel like trying. Last two MC we conceived first time trying, which was unexpected. Now, nothing for 6 months. I'm 37 and my DD is 4.5 and we don't have a huge amount of time, so I was planning on just hoping all worked out for the best (naive probably).
Anyway, to complicate matters, last month I was offered my dream job - it's a fixed-term contract (2 years) in a profession I thought I was no longer competitive in, so it's both terrifying and exciting for me. I applied even though we were TTC, as it felt too good an opportunity to pass up, and it would open up awesome future opportunities also.
This month, first at the job, I was convinced I was pregnant. I felt a bit conflicted, but excited. But, just took a test and BFN. Now am gutted. And also, suddenly everything feels more complicated.
We have been thinking of trying Clomid, but it feels like a major thing to get into at the start of a stressful new job. Also, there's the temptation to try to control the timing now, because it would make things a HEAP easier if I got pregnant not this next month, but in four months' time.
What would you do? Just keep trying, hoping for the best? Try Clomid and risk major emotional weirdness in new job? Or wait for a few months, and then try Clomid? I just feel like there's so much risk involved in delaying, and am very superstitious about trying to 'control' things, and thus jinxing whatever chance we do have. Weird thread, sorry, but any advice gratefully received.