Hi, I'm new to this group.
I'm hoping there is no nasty comments or that no-one judges me as I'm not proud.
So January last year I found out I was 9 weeks pregnant, leading up to that I had very bad morning sickness but thought it was just a normal bug that goes around except it was 4 weeks it went on for so my mother took me to the doctors which is when I found out I was pregnant. I was 16 the next month. I was still in school. No my baby wasn't planned by either me or the dad, we were very careful but obviously not careful enough. My mother cut all contact, I was kept off school and bullied into an abortion by my mother, step-dad and grandfather. I was shut in my room with nothing until the day came in February where I had to part with my baby at 13 weeks. I was always scared of my mother from being young as well as my grandfather.
I am scarred for life and there will always be a hole in my heart.
I got the implant straight after as my mother TOLD them I HAD to get it, however I can't remember and didn't give them permission to do so at all.
I bled for 9 months straight till around October/November time and then stopped for a month and since then (4 months) I've been bleeding on and off, probably once a week and getting a full period every probably 2 weeks for 3/4 days, is this normal (sometimes heavy sometimes not)?
I've also been so run down, going to college, coming home and getting straight into bed as I have NO energy to do anything else at all. I've been being physically sick recently probably 5/6 times in the last week or so, nauseous. Migraines. Stressed. Depressed (diagnosed). And feeling very pregnant also, so many symptoms of being pregnant including hard stomach. Also feelings like kicking sensations.
I'm hoping you all can help me. I'm not looking for sympathy just a little bit of help from women to women.
I'm not proud of what happened and I know there will be some negative comments.
Thank you.