Hi all
I couldn't find a recent thread to join, and have been off mn for a few months so thought I would start one as I really need the support I know these forums offer.
I struggled to conceive with PCOS but fell pregnant in July. At my 12 week scan I was immediately told that my babies brain had not split into two lobes as expected and referred. I was told later by the specialist that our baby had alobar holoprosencephaly (quite rare) and that we should terminate.
We had the d&c on 16th September and I was numb. I wanted this baby so much. Now I feel the grief has hit my full force. I don't know how I can carry on.
I am desperate to get pregnant but have only had one af since the D&C and am now on CD 42.
I'm also terrified this could all happen again although the specialist said this was unlikely.
As I say, I feel like after the initial autopilot I have now fallen off a cliff. I go from being ok to being totally inconsolable at the drop of a hat. I don't want to eat, or see people.
Anyone else in a similar position? Any advice on how to get through this grief? Any good stories about going on to have a family?
If I could never have children I think my life would not be worth living.