AIBU to find this so disheartening...

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That could apply to my ttc over the last half a year since miscarrying my first baby but really focuses on the 'mind over matter' I've been finding lately.

Does anyone else find themselves focusing on every possible symptom in the 2ww and then getting the heartbreak of delayed period and then nothing. BFN and period.

Since miscarrying my 'pregnancy symptoms', those I had in the first 6 weeks which told me I was pregnant the first time are now my PMS symptoms. Right down this month to the tiredness and hot flushes.

Why is my mind/body tricking each other like this? It's so hurtful when I wonder and think and hope and then nothing. It's worse then ttc before I was pregnant the first time because at least then I knew I was pregnant before taking the test! Now I constantly think 'oh i am' and then 'no'.

I guess what I'm asking is does anyone else ttc find this mind/body trickery? Do those who had miscarriages find it worse?

This month I'm enjoying as much alcohol as possible in protest of my body/mind misbehaviour.

I'm also asking that if you did have it then what did you do to get by or stop it?

I think I'm just looking for advice and reassurance that I'm not the only one who felt this way.

I think almost everyone feels that way
I thought I was pregnant every single month until I got my bfp. It definitely makes you feel like you're going mad.
Sorry to hear about your mc and I really hope you get your sticky bean soon.

Thank you Oysterbabe. It's relieving to hear I'm not the only one. Very pleased you got your bfp

Thank you. I still feel sad from time to time about our first but it's nowhere near what it was. I'm hoping we get our baby soon.

Sorry to hear about your MC

I was awful for symptom spotting and was convinced every month.

The month before my BFP, I symptom spotted like crazy and noted everything down, so that the following months, I could see for definite these signs were normal and not necessarily pregnancy.

The month I gotta BFP I was convinced I wasn't pregnant as had no 'special' symptoms; however with hindsight the wretching might have been a clue 4 days before AF.....

The month I got my BFP, were it not for over buying ICs, I wouldn't have bothered testing as so convinced I wasn't, and then day before AF I properly felt like my period was coming. The throwing up the day AF was due might have prompted me in the end...

The body is cruel for messing with the mind! Once the 2ww is over, just wait for the fun of the 8ww to the 12 week scan....

Sorry, with a MC you already know the torment of the 8ww.

Thank you MrsPCR. Yes the 8ww is even less fun. Once I've gone (if I do again) past 2ww that will be horrific. Before the mc, it didn't occur to me at all. I knew I could miscarry but didn't think I would. Sadly the scan proved me wrong and I found had a mmc rather then a happy heartbeat.

I do agree, you've summed it up perfectly- the body is so cruel messing with the mind. I think that's my big issue, not being over the fact that my body messed with my mind in the cruellest way- convincing me my baby was fine and I was still pregnant when it had died just before.

It's awesome that you didn't have a clue. Heaving could have been a clue, but could have been bad food or wine too. Congrats