I've never tried ovulation predictor kits
. I guess I should as I don't always have EWCM, leaving me to wonder if I even ovulated
. But this month I had clear CM even after fertile window, sorry TMI, but I've had that before with chemical pregnancies. I guess I have had too many early miscarriages that I don't want to get obsessed with symptom spotting.
My family and friends wonder if I've not had done pregnancy test, how would I have known if I had been pregnant in the past. But it's because I get all the pregnancy symptoms and when my period would be delayed by at least two weeks, and I'd start bleeding really heavily and it would last a day or two and then the symptoms go away 
But I'm now thinking that there may be an underlying issue which leads to early miscarriages. I still think that it's important to be positive, but my GP thinks difficulty concieving is down to stress.
Perhaps I am more stressed at a subconscious level? Could explain why I'm dreading a birth announcement by one of my siblings as I have been married longer than them and much as I'd be over the moon to have a niece or nephew, I know questions will arise of why I have apparently "decided" not to have children
.
I really don't like people making assumptions. But whilst I try to remain positive, admittedly it does get difficult to see the brighter side after being constantly being disappointed. I just have to be patient and I suppose when the right time comes along, things will fall into place.
Sorry for going on. I can't sleep sometimes as these things play on my mind.