scared to have baby after m/c also health problems

[BubbleGuppie]

Hi, I lost my baby at 4-5 months on November 24th last year. Not only was it the most painful thing ever emotionally but physically aswell. Im so scared of being pregnant again but I really want another baby more than anything... I have a 4 year old (13th May)

I dont think I Could go 4-5 months pregnant without worrying that something bad Will happen. I have anxiety issues and panic attacks also this thing called vascular collapse where I pass out as my blood isnt getting to my brain and my brain forgets to breathe so I faint, which is due to lack of iron/sugar/ vitamins ect..
Which is because I found out last year im allergic to ALL seeds so had to change diet over night (no sunflower, Sesame, vanilla, rapeseed ect)

I lost my baby due to stress put on me by MIL (which I posted about in another thread) not health problems..

I guess id just like to hear someones story about losing there baby late in pregnancy and how midwifes/ doctors helped and that it wont happen again :(

Hi bubbleguppie I'm so sorry to hear about your loss

I didn't miscarry but we had a termination for medical reasons at 18 weeks in my first pregnancy after our baby was found to have a very rare chromosomal syndrome and we were told there are slim odds of her even surviving the pregnancy.

I can completely identify with the need to be pregnant again asap, and also the terror that something might go wrong. I felt like I lost myself for a while and I was worried that if something bad happened again I might lose a big part of myself and never get it back. Life had lost all flavour and colour.

I would say that the subsequent pregnancy was not easy - I spent a lot of time crying and panicking that we were going to lose him too. We had a lot of tests but you can never fully relax, can you? But hope does find a way and each day I was pregnant a little bit more hope crept into my heart. Eventually DS was born alive and kicking and he's been wonderful ever since.

I can't say I feel like I will ever 'enjoy' pregnancy like some women do, and I feel sad in many ways that that's been taken away from me, but you've got to be in it to win it so for me it's worth the risk.

I hope you can deal with the other emotional issues which I can see are also making you very stressed. Maybe talk to your doctor about it - wwre you referred for counselling? There's a thread in the conception topic about Angels and Rainbows which is for ladies who have lost their babies a bit later on and are trying again. I didn't post on it much when we were ttc DS but I did read it a lot and it helped to know other people felt like I did.

Wishing you lots of luck!

Piz