We can't be upbeat all the time. It's human nature. Come and have a moan. No judgment guaranteed and no apologies needed.

[Iliveinalighthousewiththeghost]

I'll go first.... I'm in my 2ww, but fed up getting let down. By the witch turning up, and you can only say to yourself so many times. I dont know what's round the corner next month but I do know what round the corner. I've been round it countless times. Been TTC for almost 2 years. I know I'm foolish but I'm too scared to go to the Doctor. Scared there's something wrong...
BFP announcements and pregnant bellies make me feel insanely jealous and inferior. I am starting to be amazed that there are 7 billion people in the world. FFS, how. Some women it seems only have to look at their partners and they're announcing. I'm pregnant...
I do know I am lucky though. I do have dd some people do not even get the gift of having one...
Feel free to moan and off load. It's allowed, isn't it.

I'm fed up too. Everyone is pregnant. Except all those people who were pregnant around the time I was, first time round. They've all had their 2nds by now.
My cycle's gone up the spout so I don't ovulate every month and can't work out when or if I have done the other months. DP doesn't want to have sex with me and now that he's agreed, finally, to TTC, he thinks we just have to do it once. It has been over a year and a half now.

It's shit Miffy. Really shit. First thing I saw after AF turning up (who has now left again, not sure what's going on there, being well and truly taunted I think!) was that Fearne Cotton was pregnant again. It's like there's an announcement every day at the moment.

I am currently sitting here crying my eyes out I don't think I have ever felt pain like I have in the last few months. I really have got to breaking point. After 7 fucking years of trying to get pregnant I finally got a BFP to then go on and have a missed miscarriage and have to have an ercp at the end of November. All I see is pregnant people, or perfect little families with their babies & if one more person asks when I am going to have a baby I honestly think i will punch them.

So sorry to hear that forty, there are no words and I just hope things start to look up for you and all of us soon.
I agree with you all, we can't always be happy and sometimes I just want to shout why the hell not what the heck is happening?! But still we grin and go on. I guess it's what we have to do....

Really sorry forty (((hugs )))

Thank you I hope you all get the happiness you are after. Xx

Sorry to hear that 40. Love and thoughts to everyone else, too. Xx
I'm thinking of looking into adoption.

Hi ladies, just thought I'd update you all. I went to the Drs this morning and asked to have some tests done, I didn't have much luck with the Dr I saw back in October but this Dr was lovely and arranged for me to have bloods done on cd21 and cd2, she told me that sometimes they have to do cd21 bloods twice so if this is the case not to worry and if tests come back fine next step will be sperm testing. I'm so glad that I went, now I've got a plan of action in place!

Ugh my AF hasn't arrived but a HPT came up negative. Worried my cycle's fucked after pregnancy and labour. It used to be regular as clockwork. Arrgghhhh.

Delighted you now have a plan Sakura, it's nice to just put the worries aside for a while! I had my day 3 bloods done the other day and will be getting the day 21 ones soon. Fingers crossed it will all be ok.

Forty your post made me so sad, you poor thing. I hope you are doing ok and getting lots of support in real life.

I'm feeling a lot better after my sh!tty week last week I must say. Hope ye are all doing ok too ladies.

A

Love this thread! I'm having a ridiculously down day today. We've been TTC for 10 months now, and it feels like it's never gonna happen. :( I'm always driving myself mad with symptom spotting, and testing too early. I'm currently 10dpo, has a faint line this morning, but I'm so convinced it's an evap! I've had enough, I really have. It's just so heartbreaking having AF arrive month, after month. My partner tells me not to worry, and that it'll happen soon, but I very much doubt it at this rate. It's got that bad, that I can't even be happy when I hear another pregnancy announcement.. As awful as it sounds I just get mad, angry and extremely jealous. I think "why has it happened for them, but not for me!?" Urgh! Rant over.

Hi girls!

This thread is brilliant its so good to hear people feeling the same way as me. I've been ttc for about 5 months, although the first couple of months was just a matter of removing contraception as i thought falling pregnant would be so easy. I've been pregnant before, a while back but did not make it past 8 weeks, although i did't know i was pregnant til i was 6-7 weeks as i was on the pill at the time, so i do feel guilty for not knowing as i didn't change my life style (young, loved going out for drinks with friends etc) and i feel i brought harm to the baby i was carrying though i didn't even know it was there!
i was so sure this month would be my month i had so many vivid dreams i was pregnant, i usually have a recurring dream where i have a baby, but towards the end of the dream the baby turns into a doll and its no longer real, but this never happened in these dreams so obviously desperate for a glimmer of hope i thought it meant something. I took a test yesterday which was BFN and AF turned up just a few hours later. Everywhere I go i just see newborns or pregnant women (possibly because i find myself lurking in baby sections of stores but i can't help it). I just feel so desperate at the minute alls i've done is cry! I know in the grand scheme of things i haven't been ttc that long especially in comparison to others but it still makes me worry that something is wrong. I feel this month is a kick up the backside though i need to think positively as the world is still spinning!
maybe this cycle will the one, eh?

Friday it was 2 weeks after my D&C. The bleeding has thankfully mostly stopped.

Everywhere we went today we saw big preggy bellies. OH is sweet but has no clue. We have 2 kids, and he's happy with two. Cannot see what I'm fussing about.

And then I read the threads on here, and feel greedy that I have 2 fabulous kids and want another one.

Hi Madgie

I don't think it matters how long you'be been trying for, I just think it's an awful shock to find out it doesn't happen straight away like my sex ed in a catholic secondary school led me to believe!

And Pippa the heart wants what the heart wants so don't feel bad, you must be in a hormone storm atm that is tough too!

Ax