Conceiving

[Bumblepops19]

Hey, I wanted to know if anyone else is experiencing the same thing as myself when it comes to conceiving or if I am in need of help via doctors.

My OH already has a child that he doesn't get to see very regularly (mother is hard work and LB is going through a phase of just wanting to stay home) this has made me incredibly anxious about having our own baby and yes a lot of people will say I'm jealous and want to put my mark on my OH and to a degree I agree with them wholet heartedly. I do want a family of my own and I'm jealous that he has a child when unfortunately I have lost 2 in very early stages of pregnancy.

It seems that the only thing I can think about is having a baby, my hormones are constantly telling me that I need to have a baby and I NEED to have one now. This isn't practical due to current living arrangements and wages and my OH is incredibly patient with me and everytime we talk about it he points out the practicalities which enrages me and makes me get my head together that he's right. However the emotional side of it is that I end up crying, with OH, without OH, having nightmares about everything and anything baby related and has made me feel really alone and depressed

I don't feel like I can talk to him because I know the whole situation stresses him out and I can't talk to my family as they don't understand the emotional side of it. I'm only 22, me and OH are getting married in 2017 and I'm starting a nursing/midwifery course in September so I have loads to be happy about and look forward to but my emotions seem to rule the roost! I don't want to start a new course with my head in a bad place, i. Constantly thinking about seeing a therapist but don't have the confidence to take the leap!

Any advice is welcome ladies. Tia.

Forgot to say that I was on the implant and had to have it taken out due to horrendous mood swings and upsetting my body. Changed to microgynion and my periods have been erratic to say the least. Having a 1 week break before a period kicks in again and then nothing for 5 weeks. Plus that ever hopeful part of my brain is keeping its fingers crossed that when it's late its because im pregnant. I stopped microgynon for 2 months and everything started to settle but felt guilty that I could be putting stress on OH by getting pregnant so then started taking it again after talking to doctor. I'm restricted on contraceptivesdue to really sensitive migraines

Hi there, sorry to hear you're going through such a rough time.

What about your current living arrangements means you can't have a baby? Do you live separately or with your parents? How about thinking of ways in which you can reach a point where it is practical. Start saving for a place together for example.

I would also try and think about why you feel you need a baby right now. It might be an emotional need that's not being fulfilled elsewhere in your life? You say you can't talk to your family, but maybe they can help you.

I'm not saying you shouldn't have a baby, just that it seems to be winding you up and stressing you out, so you should probably consider if that is the right way to start getting pregnant.

Hope some of that helped a little :)