Does anyone else scream inside?

[itssangriaoclock]

I know it sounds awful, when friends/family/colleagues share their news. I'm outwardly happy congratulate them chat baby etc. but on the inside I'm screaming my heart out. I even have a good old cry when I'm alone. Pls tell me I'm not going insane. Ttc is a very bumpy road need someone to help me through.

Yep. It's pretty pants! I dread Facebook announcements.

You are not alone!! I am exactly the same.
It's so difficult, especially when people say things like 'I really didn't think it would happen this quickly' X

Yup another one here.
The monthly failure is relentless and only made worse by the (seemingly) constant stream of successes all around.

I didn't realise it would be so annoying. Hurry up and happen already. I just feel like a failure when AF comes. The egg was there!! The sperm was there!!! Just bloody well happen!!!!

Yes me too! I feel like such a bitch, struggle to be happy for other people's baby news. I grit my teeth so much I must be damaging them. Hang on in there girl. We are all on this journey together.

Yes!! I'm surrounded by pregnant ladies and new mums at the moment.
As happy as I am for them, i find it really sad for me.

Yep, i have never been so jealous until starting to try for a baby, even seeing people out in the street pushing there prams can tip me over the edge when I'm in one of those cloudy moods, feels like everyone is rubbing my nose in it, so you certainly not alone

Thank you everyone, thought I was the only bitch. It's so hard, really struggling today. Waiting for AF to arrive trying not to symptoms watch cant see another BFN on test again so won't test. I hate this so much I'm sending myself crackers

With you. I can't stand testing either anymore. I think it's harder that I'm not talking to anyone else about all of this (in RL anyhow), have no one other than DH and mums net to talk with.

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Yeah defo Know that feeling had a baby girl in September died three days later. So now feel have to start all Over again and seeing all the Facebook announcements is a killer

Yup. And I dread my sisters in law telling us they're pregnant (inevitable soon) I think that will be the final straw and am genuinely scared of how upset I'll be. Makes me feel like a total bitch but just really struggling at the moment. It's not fun anymore.

So sorry Cozza.

So sorry for your loss cozza, can't begin to imagine how you are feeling.

Big hugs

Cozza I am so sorry for you. I really hope you are doing ok or as well as you can be given everything. Do let us know how things work out next for you.

Oh cozza how sad, I'm sorry.

to all fellow mums in waiting out there.

Hi ladies I know this feeling oh so well. I felt devastated when SIL announced her pregnancy. But during her pregnancy I had good days but mostly bad emotional days. Now my neice is here and some days like to day its killing me. We've been asked to babysit for an hour! (OR TWO) this weekend. So I'm trying to keep things together. Seems like everyday announcements and pictures are all over my facebook.
trying to keep hope and stay strong....
sorry to rant but so nice to get things off my chest xxx

Dandelion take the opportunity to bond with your niece. It's completely natural to want to scream and shout inside, especially when you get home but don't let it take away time with your niece.

It is really hard, I cry if a character on TV or in book gets pregnant.

Stay strong

Thank you itsangriaoclock. Im going to put my feelings aside and give DN a great first Christmas!

And I know what you mean just started a new book and first chapter she has a baby!
Big hugs xxx