The continuing Pregtober bus where we all take crack epo!!

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Enormous hugs MrsE - as Spinning rightly says, early pregnancy is such a worrying time. So much so (and please don't judge me for saying this) that I'm almost dreading my next BFP (assuming of course I get there). This is ridiculous of course, as I desperately want children (and more than one at that) but with two early losses under my belt I just know that I won't be able to relax properly / think of anything else until the 12 week scan is done and dusted.

If I were you, I'd enjoy your bath, take it easy tomorrow and if you're still worried on Monday, try and get scanned at an EPU. I'm conscious that they're unlikely to see very much at present, but they should at least be able to tell you that your bean's in the right place and is developing as normal. That having been said, it's really positive that you don't have any bleeding, and cramping as the uterus expands in early pregnancy really is quite normal. Keeping everything crossed for you.

Want I don't want to tell them until the new year. Not sure how that's going to Pan out though. Reason being oldest ds is doing his mocs in November, then it's Christmas and then I have to get past my brother and sisters birthday in January. Both whom will be vile about me being pg. also I was really poorly last year and want to know I've got the right care going on before We announce. Saying that dh nearly told Bil last nt. my mother is going to kill me!

Thanks blueberry as you can probably tell I am a manic symptom spotter ;) probably setting. Myself up for a fall! But what else are you suppose to do in the tww! Test test test it is the only way I know.... Fx

Take it easy mrsE

Why is your mother going to kill you mrs e? Gosh you will have to be extra secretive through Xmas then, get in some non alcoholic milled ;)

You put your feet up and take it easy mrsE and do not worry about what others have to say!

treacle thank you so much! That's great to see another chart. It looks much more similar to mine than I've seen except your temp rise was higher than mine so far. But I will be patient.
I have decided I'm getting my BFP this month too. It's not up for discussion.

mamapo thanks for the offer anyway and not to worry

Er well it's a bit of a problem in more ways than one for her as ive have 5dc and my dsis could only have 1dc. So each time I have to sort of apologise it's not her. Families!!!! In addition dm watched me give birth last time and there was no mw until the last 10 minutes. She thought she was going to have to deliver. She was fab, but she's terrified my body has had enough. After all she's just worried about her baby. So I need to know everything is in hand before I worry anyone. I also fell out with my sister for 18 months over names. So if I get to let, we will announce after 20wk scan, gender, name and birth plan. Then they've all only got 4 months to get their knickers in twists. obviously if it's twins what I just said goes out the window, will down a gun and tonic and announce, then run and hide shortly after first scan

Want - with my last BFP I had creamy white cm from around 10 dpo which continued, and as others have said, it's definitely a symptom. The previous month, when I wasn't upduffed, I had loads of creamy white cm between 4 and 10 dpo but it then disappeared.

Blueberry - I'm with you - I will also be getting utterly paranoid with every twinge in early pregnancy. Fx we can both make the AN threads soon.

Treacle - glad you're feeling so positive - I have a really good feeling about you this month.

Mrs E - I am sure little bean is just burrowing, making itself comfortable, maybe if you are feeling upto it shopping for flowers might take your mind off from worrying for a little while, x

Congratulations Sparkle and thedetective wonderful news!

I'm 10dpo today and got a BFN. Zero symptoms so not getting my hopes up for anything else.

Sorry to everyone else with a bfn or af x

MrsE hope you're feeling better soon.

It's been a looooong day so just a quick hello and sorry to those with BFNs. FX for the Sunday testing posse, looking forward to seeing how you all get on.

Feel better soon MrsE [thanks

MrsE try not to worry about anything. Little bean will be comfy in there, sit back and let the burrowing commence

My DH is bring a bit of a knob today, or maybe it's me being a bit sensitive. His mum is visiting us this weekend and I think we're both feeling the pressure a little but he goes into uber control mode and I go into 'could cry at any moment' mode - bit of a nightmare mix really. I'm sure we'll get over ourselves soon, hopefully!!

Thanks Spinning and MrsE :)
Not trying soy this month. Going to do it next month if no joy.
No problem genni, this month started off rocky but is looking good. Don't worry about a slight rise, it may just be a slow rise :)
Thanks Cariad, i really have my fingers crossed. The reflexology has helped bring my positivity back, despite being in pain tonight! (Antibiotics messing with my digestion I think).

Broody I completely understand the fear of getting a bfp only to get a cp. Part of me thinks though that if it was to happen I would rather know and then I would be one closer to being able to investigate to find out why. Hopefully it won't happen again to either of us though!

joining the ttc October bus!

Thanks sunbathing! I've had af type pain since before I knew I was pg. it just stepped up a gear this eve and there was no respite whatsoever. Quite acute. But have taken myself to bed with a hot water bottle in the hope it calms down a bit.

Congrats to all the BFPs!!!

The poster who said they almost dread getting a BFP? I completely identify with that. Getting pregnant is only the start of it. I know for me personally, I won't be able to relax until after the 20 week anomaly scan. When I was pregnant with my DS I got hysterical over trying to recalculate odds of having another Downs pregnancy (terminated my first pregnancy due to that and serious heart problems were already apparent ) and didn't relax until I had an amnio.

I have no idea where I am this cycle. FF is arguing with itself, depending on the ovulation detector setting, so I either ovulated on day 17 or day 21. The last time we DTD was day 17, so that may not be close enough if it was on day 21. Previous cycle was a chemical pregnancy and I ovulated on day 19, so who knows?? I'm on cycle day 28 today and my cycle lengths are anything from 30-33.

I am symptom spotting like mad. I have felt sick, things SMELL and my boob is sore, but these are all symptoms I had last month when it didn't last and I'm discounting sore boob because it's the one that tried to kill me and it often does weird things. I am VERY irritable though. I need a sign to hang around my neck that says 'Beware of the bitch'.

Biscuit - sorry to hear about your losses. Glad I'm not the only one who finds BFPs scary.

Symptoms are sounding promising though. Fx this is your month.

Thanks folks. It's all just so hard this ttc lark. When I think of this time last year, we were just starting to think about trying for dc2. I fell pg in our first cycle over Christmas. Then miscarried at 12 weeks on February 27. Now I've finally got my head back on track after the utter heartache and devastation, only to be worried before I've even got a bfp in our first proper full blown ttc cycle again! Head fuck ladies, that's what it is. Sorry for the language and the downer, I'm usually quite chipper when I come on here as you ladies make me laugh! Think I'd best go to sleep and get myself chirpy again!

I found pregnancy to be utterly terrifying last time around, after ttc for 18 months when I finally got my bfp I wasn't relieved or happy just scared shitless! Although thankfully my DD is now a very happy little 7mo and my pregnancy went pretty smoothly even if I didn't get the birth I had planned for. Congratulations for all of the BFP and Fx all goes well!

Sunbathing, I completely agree. When I think back to how innocent I was at first, it makes me feel sick because I'm too experienced now in all the bad stuff that can happen. Saying that, I'm lucky that I have support if I do manage to get a sticky one basically I know all the services to shout 'help' at.

I'm still holding onto the fact that my ovaries may not be completely fucked, if they are still releasing eggs. I had one of the most ovary damaging chemotherapy drugs, but it is a MASSIVE positive for me that my periods never ever stopped and I had my chemo when I was 27, so age is massively on my side there. Lots of women go into temporary menopause and I didn't. My ovaries are stubborn buggers.

I really do want the weird womb feelings to stop though. I get them every month, before and after ovulation. It's that heavy, dragging feeling with occasional sharp zaps and it's almost the same as what I feel in early pregnancy, but a bit less intense. They're making me a bit crazy as I keep thinking 'What if?' and then have to talk myself down because they're normal for me.

Forgot to say, please tell me to STFU if I'm going on too much. I find it hard because I don't know anyone who's had breast cancer as young as me, who is ttc. Some ladies I know from a support group are trying, but their situations are much worse than mine, so I feel like I can't talk openly as I do at least have a chance to conceive naturally and I have five embryos frozen if I find out I can't.

Sorry to hear what you've been through some.
I hope you get your bfp quickly x

I have a funny story for you ladies.
So despite not feeling well and being very tired I managed to persuade DH to dtd in case eggy is still waiting.
Afterwards, DH went to move and accidently hit my bum. I jumped shocked, then giggled but as I'm so tired it led to a mix of giggle and cry.
Cue DH and i giggling uncontrollably.
Writing it down, it doesn't sound so funny.

Anywho... as you were!