I'm embarrassed that it's not happening.

[Seafoam]

and ashamed. I feel out of control, like I don't kmow my own body anymore and I am losing hope.

It's been 14 months now which I know, is not long compared to the journeys some of you are on, so I am sorry too.. For my moaning.

We got pregnant first month with my precious dc1.

I wish, I had never been so naive. Given the quickness of it all first time we thought nothing of casually (but excitedly) telling friends and family we were ready for another.. (effectively saying we were ttc)

much excitement and theoretical conversations were had.

and now everyone gives us those sad, sympathetic looks when they see us. . and it is obvious that it is not happening. I feel a sense of dread, deep down. It isn't going to happen is it?

It's a hard journey. We're even less far down the road than you but it's a frustrating experience, and like you I feel like I can't 'trust' my body at all. No advice at all sorry, but lots of sympathy

it will happen! I've read on here very few people don't ever make it. that's what I keep telling myself, even if it gets to fertility treatments or IVF I will get there!

I also excitedly told people we were trying for no 2 and I still talk about it a wee bit to friends. I have always been quite open because I don't want miscarriage or struggling to get pregnant to be taboo.

Sea, I am in exactly the same position. DD was conceived second month, and I also naively and excitedly thought it would happen straight away again, so waited until I was ready for a baby in about 9 months before we started trying again. Went round telling everyone the exact age gap I wanted and that I wanted it to be born in the spring. I hate that person that I was! 16 months later and no BFP I still don't understand what is going on and why it isn't happening. We are doing everything right.
I know those looks very well. I also get the 'she needs a sibling' talks. I have been open about what is going on with my family and very close friends, but dread the questions from other people. Someone at work today gave me a lecture about leaving long age gaps between children!
Sea it will happen for us, one day, eventually, I mean it has to right? It just won't be when we thought it would, or hoped it would, but one day it will.

Seafoam I've been trying for #2 for 21 months, DD came along without us trying. I'm finding it very tough DD is 4 so there's going to be a much bigger than intended age gap. This is one of the hardest things I've had to go through, it's been so stressful.

Luckily I never told anyone we were TTC & I've only since confided in people that we are struggling with TTC.

Oh Gingerbread that must have so hard for you, people should really think about what they're saying before they open their mouth.