Embarrassed about TTC?

[lastnightIwenttoManderley]

So DH and I have been married for 2 years and have decided that we're going to start TTC at Christmas.

We've been talking about it for some time and it feels like now is a good time given where we are in our life, plus we're aware it wont necessarily happen overnight so don't want to leave it too long. I'm really excited about what the future holds and us expanding our little family unit (us and the dog so far!) but...

...for some reason, now we've decided the time is right I feel a bit, well, embarrassed by the whole idea. Not the pregnancy part, or the labour part...just the fact that we're now TTC. I'm not sure if it's because my dad and brother used to tease me relentlessly when puberty hit - that seems too long ago to have any effect. Or maybe that it's a proper 'adult' thing to be doing (I'm a professional who manages multi million pound projects, I'd like to think I'm grown up!). Maybe it's about expecting my body to be doing something that I really have no control over. I really don't know.

Is it just me or has anyone else felt like this?

Hi lastnight, I wouldn't say I feel embarrassed but it does feel a little reckless. I think we spend so long using protection and trying not to get pregnant that it's difficult to switch your brain over to thinking it's ok.

I wouldn't say embarrassed but it felt weird/wrong the first few times we DTD with no protection.

and if you want some control I'd recommend charting your bbt/ewcm now so that you have an idea of your cycles when you start trying. gl

I know exactly what you mean! My parents were never ones to talk about sex, so having a baby means that they know we do! Argh

lildottie I think the control thing is more that it may just be something we can't do, if that makes sense?

jdear I think you may have hit on it..! Also doesn't help that DH keeps putting his hand on my stomach and I'm a bit 'whoa, hang on there!'. It's almost like all of a sudden all I am is this baby making machine.

2yrs ttc here last....makes perfect sense

Yes, I agree, I felt the same. I couldn't even say the word 'pregnant' at first, until I was about 7 months along. It took me a whole weekend with my parents to tell them (despite having a planned of, when married and almost 30)

Now DC1 is here I'm totally over it