TTC Pity Party - here, now. Free entry. All welcome!

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I'm holding a pity party. Come and join the fun!

Fed up of TTC? Bored of DTD when you would really rather watch Downton Abbey? Sick of feeling envious of other people's bumps, births and babies? Wishing that you could break an egg without doing a mental comparison with your cervical fluid? ("wow so it's supposed to be THAT stretchy!?") Starting to wonder if a BFP and the whole pregnancy thing is actually a myth put about by storks who were getting run off their feet with baby orders?

ME TOO!

Please join me. What's driving you crazy about this whole TTC malarkey? Personally I am getting sick to the back teeth of it and mostly feeling really, really exhausted by thinking about BABIES ALL THE TIME!

Anyone else?

Haha 'tits n teeth' Muddleduck! My af is like a ninja - haven't seen it for 5 weeks and no regular cycles so it'll probably arrive by stealth also, still no symptoms to spot this month so am not even secretly hoping i'm upduffed.

Pity party still going strong - BFN this morning. So fed up of symptom spotting, thinking about being pregnant, pregnant people, people with children, baby aisle in supermarket, really thought we might have cracked it this month. Feels like time is slipping away.

Can someone tell me to pull myself together please and/or give me and

May I join you ladies ttc dc 3 only in cycle 2 and have already googled myself to near death !!! Currently on cd7 and have just started testing with my cbdm which I treated myself to last week... Am already driving myself and poor dh round the bend with constant talk of opk's ...flashys..smilies... Peaks and baby dancing

I'll join! TTC1 for 15 or 16 months now (I can't even be bothered to remember now). I've been through all the investigations and been diagnosed with PCOS - fine, good, at least I know what the problem is. Trouble is that I'm here, poised and ready to take my first dose of Clomid and my bastard AF hasn't shown up (4 days late which never happens). It's not a BFP (got a BFN on Sat), AF is just taunting me.

I'm going to put my best knickers on tomorrow. And some white trousers for good measure.

Hi All,

22 mths TTC and TBH the DTD part is still great (Only got married 6 weeks ago). I've wanted to keep the pressure off and to keep it fun by keeping DTD about us having fun, not about TTC,,,,,However 22 mths in and still no BFP it's all now getting serious and scary - finally taking the plunge into finding out whats going on!

Feeling extra self-pity tonight as I've just found via fb that one of my best friends is having a party for her dad's 4th birthday at the weekend. Everyone but me and DH appear to have been invited. Makes me feel like a giant failure of a social leper.

Place marking for now, will be back to the party. Currently CD15 and bang in the middle of enforced dtd as much as humanly possible

Wow pity party in full swing! So glad you could all join me ladies!

I am off to a coffee morning later which is for mums with tiny babies - I am helping out - but I expect I will be all about the pity party afterwards!!

We have decided to DTD every other day and even the prospect of that is exhausting me!

I really feel for all of you at the pity party :(

I'm well and truly feeling sorry for myself at the moment again.

Been ttc since the middle of 2011, wasn't taking it too seriously, just having a lot of sex around the right time of ov - that didn't work.
Somewhere in the first few months of 2012 we got on it properly - out came the cheapy opk's, the multi vits and the obsession with my cervical functions began.
How hard could it be I asked, I'd had 3 dc already without TRYING FFS! Albeit with a different partner and when I was barely out of adolescence myself, but still.
it was just my age I thought.
At that point I was 34 - so nearing that mystical, ovary crunching, fertility vanishing age of 35 This was before I researched information about +35 ttc so was quite worried.
I'd had basic blood work done and dh had his sperm checked all was fine.

2013 came around and still I wasn't upduffed :(
It got to around April/May time and I'd had more than enough of CB fecking flashy smiley faces, charting my cycles, counting days, mechanical dtd and 2 week waits.
I drove myself crazy and each failed month would end up a hormonal and emotional mess. I couldn't stand to see anything about pregnancy or babies anywhere, it would immediately make me sad.

I had to take a few months out for the sake of my sanity, even stopped coming on the conception boards. We still were dtd around the right times, just in case we got lucky.

We didn't but I decided to start again with the opk's and started bbt charting.
I've had every possible test done to see if there's anything wrong. NO pcos, NO thyroid, my testosterone was a bit up but it went back to normal after stopping vit b6, my reserve is fine as are the rest of my hormones, I'm ovulating and everything from my scans were normal. I even ov'd TWICE in July - Still nothing
I've changed my diet, include extra vits and minerals, I stopped smoking, don't drink - there's nothing more I can do.

It's back again to getting me really down - last month I had, while trying to ignore, many 'symptoms' and I mean many.
I was broken hearted when bitch face AF arrived 2 days late. I really thought it could be.
Currently my patience for optimal sperm depositing positions, secondary orgasming, raised hips and/or leg cycling and the 30 minute post coital stillness, has all but vanished. I just can't be bothered to be bothered any more.
I've even gently mentioned to Dh that I'm quite close to giving up, I just can't keep doing this to myself EVERY.BASTARD.SOUL-DESTROYING.MONTH.
I haven't made a definite decision and I don't know what it means for our relationship if I do, I know Dh will accept it but it's not fair that he would never experience his own biological child :(

Sorry this is long but feels good to get it out.

Can I join the pity party please. Came off the pill a year ago. had a MMC in June. Have to sit next to a pregnant woman and hear constant chitter chatter about babies. I hate my life today

Due to be fertile next weekend, but have already booked off my predicted fertile days in November incase we're not successful this month. Yes, that's right, I'm booking my holidays based on the optimum times to shag and get upduffed!

Count me in!

Started trying January 2013, had the odd month here and there of not trying due to moving house and life stress but feeling utterly fed up!! Tests show everything is fine and that we just need to DTD all the time!

Currently using the clearblue monitor too, as well as temping!

My main plea for pity is due to my best friend finding out she is pregnant, and they weren't even trying! Complete green eyed monster!

RE-entering the pity party.
Hi guys, hope you're all good.

Hmm! I'm late!
Af most often comes on day 26 with the odd time coming either a day after or before.
Today I'm day 29. I've been ignoring post Ov symptoms completely but do have cramping, back pain and some brown discharge, I wouldn't even say it's enough to call spotting. This is not normal for me - usually I get cramp/back pain then period comes a few hours after or I have a little dark blood then within hours the red blood is in full flow.
I don't have tests in the house (because they make me neurotic and I constantly test) but haven't bought one today because I just know that if I have one to use in the morning then Af will show up before I get to do it.
So my plan for tomorrow is to pee my FMU in a pot, then go get a test.
I haven't even said anything to Dh yet as I'm sick of disappointing him every month and can't face it again.

Hope others here have good news.

Wanted to join, this is my first post ever!! Anyone had experiences with Cerazette? There seems to be no active posts about getting off it anymore! I came off 4 months ago as partner & i decided to ttc but nothing! No periods or anything & its doing my head in! Been to dr's but got fobbed off and told to wait until its been 6 months! Yet whole time you're on the pill u get told just missing 1 pill could be all it takes, what a load of c**p!!

Feeling v bored of the waiting so thought i'd see if anyone else is in the same boat!!

Can I join please? Started ttc in 2011, had two mcs in rapid succession and then nothing. Fast forward to this year, still not achieved a successful pregnancy. We've both had fertility tests and both have issues-my DH had cancer when he was younger which has caused issues, and the GP doesn't think I'm ovulating-negative 21 day tests and bad blood results, plus very long cycles.
One of my DH's friends announced she was pg early this year, not planned and with the guy for only a few months. It's tortured me all year as she wasn't trying, is the same age as us and constantly posted pictures on fb of her growing bump, pg updates etc. she had the baby on Friday, and I can't ring myself to congratulate her, which is feel horrendous about, but all I can think is it's not fair. Me and DH have been together a decade, had some really horrendous times with DH's cancer, and now we're struggling with ttc. It just doesn't seem fair that we've suffered so much and are now having more problems.
Then over the weekend I had a really strong positive opk, and told a friend about it, who basically said it's probably a mistake. When I said that is had two in 24 hrs her reply was, 'yeah well I guess miracles can happen'. I don't know why but that's really bothered me.

Thats not very friendly, congratulations here!!! And good luck! Its hard watching others fall pg around u but at the same time, its not their fault, u can't lose a friend over it, so u should congratulate them, they're obviously excited, as you would be in that situation, although appreciate its hard for you!

Good luck

Hi Fran - I've not been on cerazette before but hopefully others have some advice for you. The pill has never worked for me, in fact 2 of my dc were conceived on it after 100% taking it properly. Try and look on the positive side, it's 4 months now so only 2 more before the GP takes you seriously

Hi adora - while I understand your frustration and jealousy (I've felt it myself over the years of ttc) you've got to try and and get past it or honestly it will eat away at you and make you very bitter.
Good luck with that positive opk.

I'm still cramping like mad, about an hour ago it was really bad and I went to the loo thinking this is it, definitely AF..... Nope! Nada! Nothing there.
Dh has realised that it should be my TOTM and he asked me. I gave him a vague answer ''yeah honey, due on soon'' :)
We'll see what tomorrow brings.

Meant to add - Fran you should also post on the main board in conception and ask about it - you should get a response there from others that don't come into this thread.

Ugh can I join?
Came off the dreaded depo injection after 6 years and being TTC since officially a year this month.
In the meantime SIL has fallen pregnant 'accidentally' again and is due the end of November (also me and SIL do not get along at all)
I know I'm still within the time for the depo to be leaving my system but none of my other TTC friends (many now pregnant/ had their babies) understand that I've had this roller-coaster for the past year and would have to wait another before I could talk to a doctor.
I'm dreading the inevitable text that SIL has had her baby, she consantly palms her other child on to her parents, breaks up with the dad every other week and has never took her health seriously during both of her pregnancy.
Trying to stay positive but not looking forward to Christmas

Hi Nona, sorry you're finding it difficult too. I hope you're lucky very soon.

So today, still nothing when I woke up so I collected FMU and went out at lunch time to pick up a test. Arrived home ready to do it and guess what? fucking Af raised her ugly head like I knew she would :(
Cue lots and lots of tears from me with Dh trying to comfort me while hiding his own disappointment. I know he doesn't blame me as there's no reason to, we're both completely healthy but I just have increasing feelings of MEA CULPA.

I really don't know how much longer I can keep doing this, I honestly don't. Right now I feel like saying ENOUGH!
Dh has briefly mentioned revisiting my Dr and also brought up 'clinics' and 'seeing what we can do' but I don't know, we'll talk more when I feel more positive. We have some fantastic fertility clinics here where we are and much cheaper than the UK too so it's something to think about.

My body, not for the first time, feels like it's playing the mother of all cruel fucking jokes on me. I NEVER go to 30 days :( :(
Devastated yet again, another month, another bastard period.
And just to add the cherry to the cake - I have the period from hell - mega painful and very heavy blood loss- I'm going to put my Pj's on, grab the hot water bottle and snuggle up with Dh and watch some TV later. He's making dinner and has bought me my favourite expensive sweeties today, God love him :) but this is too much for even even chocolate to make better.

Hope you other guys have better news.