Hi.
Don't have a real question or point to this, but I'm driving myself mad so thought it may help just to write it down. There is a very very very slim possibilty I may be pregnant and my mind is racing, but I'm so scared to even think it may be true because I can't bear that come down.
Me:
Cycle 16 (ish)
Longest cycle - 33 days but I was very ill that month so I sort of rule it out.
Shortest cycle - 25 days.
Av cycle - 27/28/29 days.
I've woken up and today is day 32.
I'm cramping but I know that it sign for either period or early preg. I'm trying my very best to ignore it. Maybe I'll take a paracetamol so it may go away and stop me driving myself crazy.
This month we did it once! Only once because I'm about to start ivf! Yes, I have all the drugs and I just need to make that phonecall when I have my heavy flow. So I was all preparing myself mentally for the ivf and now this. It's probably just another cruel twist in the road to having a baby, but I can't help the praying and wondering.
And I can't bring myself to test because I'd feel such a fool if it was negative. I couldn't take it. I've told myself I'm only allowed to test if I'm a week late.
Agony. Sitting her with cup of tea and not wanting Aunt Flo to ever come, but at the same time if she's coming please do so I can just rest my mind and get on with it.