Have to wait to TTC. Anxious and need hand-holding or advice. TMI.

[BananaRaces]

Link to my previous thread here.

So I (finally) went to see the gynae last week after having waited for 10 months. I'm still getting 2 periods every month, and have been for the last year and a half - more info in previous thread. The gynae examined me and listened while I explained what's been happening. She said she "thinks it's a hormonal problem", but she's not sure. So she wants me to go on the pill for 3 months to see if the bleeding stops. She's prescribed me Norethisterone to take 3 times a day, 21 days a month, for 3 months. She's told me to come back at the end of the 3 months and see her again. If the bleeding has stopped then it's a hormonal problem, if it hasn't stopped then she wants to "collect some womb tissue" and do a biopsy to investigate further.

I'm feeling really down and anxious after this. Firstly because I haven't been on the pill for years as the last one I took gave me horrific migraines (complete with projectile vomiting and visual hallucinations), so I'm really scared that those will come back when I start taking the pill again on Monday. Secondly I'm worried about what it means if the bleeding doesn't stop while I'm taking the pill - what if there's something really badly wrong. Thirdly I'm worried that whatever the problem is - hormonal or physical - it might screw up my chances of getting pregnant.

Then there's the fact that we've been waiting to TTC for over a year now and this adding another 3 or 4 months onto that feels like mild torture, because I'm already worrying that I might have trouble getting pregnant, being made to wait longer to even start trying is really hard. I'm rapidly approaching 31 and am also aware that it took my mum years of trying to get pregnant and stay that way (she had numerous MCs too).

Any support or advice would be wonderful. I'm working myself into a little anxious ball. I've talked to my Mum and my DH, but they've both got other stresses to deal with at the moment, particularly DH, so I don't want to lean on them too hard.

Sorry for the essay... And the negativity...

Anyone?

Did the gynae know you were TTC? If so it seems a bit odd to ask you to go on the pill. I had a look at the previous thread, and it looks like you have been pretty well checked out already, so I'd imagine they would have picked up anything too sinister. I hope they get to the bottom of it soon, it sounds very frustrating! As far as the delay in TTC you are still young, so a few months shouldn't make any difference.

Thanks Flexibility. You're right, it is frustrating, and I've never been the best at waiting anyway.

Yes I did say to the gynae that we wanted to TTC, she said she thought this needed to be sorted out beforehand.

Thanks for the support. I keep telling myself I'm still young, and just because it was so difficult for my Mum to have a baby, it doesn't mean it will be the same for me. It's just difficult to really believe what I'm telling myself I guess.