RANT - NEED SOME WORDS OF ENCOURAGEMENT....

[Eddiethehorse]

I just need to rant…I’m so angry and upset.

We have been trying to conceive since a MC in October. I am on a cocktail of pills, hormones an injection and it’s not bloody working….its day 25 today and I just know AF is coming. I did a Clearblue this morning and had a very strong NOT BLOODY PREGNANT line.

Im 39 and a half…I feel like time is against me. I have just had enough……..

Rant over…..

I'm sorry to hear of your troubles. I'm 38 and I sometimes feel utter panic ttc because of my age (constantly there are awful articles in the press they just make you feel worse)and I haven't even had a MC so I can't imagine how wretched you must feel. I try to find examples of older mothers to calm me down. A girl in my office had her first baby last year. She's 43 and had been told there was no chance (endo) but she and the baby are fine.

I found this article while browsing around:
www.theatlantic.com/magazine/archive/2013/07/how-long-can-you-wait-to-have-a-baby/309374/

It is another perspective on the statistics on age related fertility - I was astonished to see the source of statistics for some of the horror stories we're fed about age and fertility.

Anyway - not sure it'll help while you're having trouble TTC but it might at least ease some of the panic.

Good luck!

Thank you!! That article looks really good!

I have a 2 year old, I am so lucky, I know I can do it.

I think part of the problem is that the DR really sold me on the success rate she has had with the cocktail of stuff I'm taking, I was so sure it would work for me. The utter devastation that it/me has failed is almost too much to bear.What is wrong with me month after month?!

Secondly, in my stupid head, i wanted to have a 2nd baby before I was 40 and this has not and will not happen.I dont really know why that 'milestone' was so important to me...its ridiculous.....I think I have put myself under so much pressure, maybe that is why it is not happening.
I keep thinking,i am lucky and so fortunate to have my DD, I could be in a far worse position but then everywhere i look everyone else is preggers and it makes me feel so angry with my situation.

Its that anticipation that 'this time it might have worked' only to be out buying Tampax again......is it wine 0'clock yet?!

Chicken IT WILL HAPPEN! XX

Happy face!!!! :)