Faint positives for last three cycles

[tuckingfits]

Hi, this is my first post in here. I am very lucky & already have a 3 year old & an 8 month old. This is our third cycle of ttc number 3.

For the three cycles I have tested on, I have had faint positive lines on branded tests however haven't been convinced & have had my usual heavy periods (except this cycle but I'll get to that in a minute!). My cycle length is still not settled from my second baby, periods started again at 6 weeks despite EBF (still bfing), but anywhere between 29-32 days. This month I used ovulation predicting sticks alongside my usual signs of ovulation, just to try to make sure I was reading them right, I was.

This month, my period is due anytime from yesterday until Thursday (day 32). I had a faint positive on first response last night, faint +ve on a Sainsbury own brand & faint +ve on a clear blue non digital today. I now have some very light pinky discharge & don't know if it's the start of my period which I wouldn't have expected until tomorrow really even though if could have been due yesterday, ir possibly implantation bleeding.

I know nobody can answer whether or nt I'm pregnant, will have to do another test in the morning, buuut, am wondering if anyone could shed some light on why I've been having positive tests. Could I still have hcg in my system from my pregnancy to term 8 months ago or wtf is going on with my body?! DP has been able to see lines last month but I haven't shown him this month as don't want to excite him for nothing again.

Sorry for the length & I hope it makes sense, does anyone have any ideas? TIA.

tucking, please talk on here or start another thread.

Can I also advise you ring the breastfeeding network's drug helpline to check on the best advice for bfing after methotrexate. I seem to remember that the advice is different depending upon dosage as my friend had exactly the same query. It IS contraindicated in bfing but there is research which suggests that the one off injection for an ectopic pregnancy does not pass into breastmilk in the volume which would necessitate a prolonged break from feeding. Please talk to the people who know about this to double check you are doing the best thing with regards to bfing.

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It is such an awful time for you and I can imagine not being able to feed your child is devastating for you. My friend has just replied to my text. She was advised 48hrs break in breastfeeding following her single shot of methotrexate which she thinks was 60mg. It was a year ago. Even if it's 48hrs, that's better than 4 days.

Please keep talking on here. Many, many MNers have walked the same path sadly.

At the risk of sounding like a broken record, thank you all again.

showy, that's so kind of you. The registrar was just going to prescribe the methotrexate - no mention of bfing, it was me who said that I assumed I wouldn't be able to breastfeed anymore (and then dissolved into tears). She didn't know but said it probably would be the end of it, went & got her drugs bible thing & it says 4 days before feeding again & to pump and dump. I've read a lot of research into it & it all points to there being none found in breast milk at all from a single shot but the recommendations I have read almost everywhere have been to wait 4 days. It's nasty stuff & I would hate to pass anything through to her, even though I know it is most unlikely.

I'll definitely phone the BFN drugs line though, that will definitely help.

DD is still missing the comfort & food aspect of bfing, refuses formula from all receptacles & has replaced milk with drinking lots of water. I am missing it. I loathed bfing the first time round, I persevered with nipple shields until 9.5 months when DS couldn't be bothered anymore. This time it has been a breeze almost the whole time & I finally understand why women who love it, love it.
My god, the cups & bottles that are strewn about my house tonight! Unbelievable amount of extra work!

I am feeling some side effects (diarrhea, nice). Nothing else to report though.

I'm so grateful to you amazing women for going through all this with me. I know we MNers don't hug (I'm the highest avoider of awkward hugs) but if we did (& I wasn't hug averse) I'd give you each a squeezy cuddle.xx

I've just come across your thread tonight and read it all.

What a horrible situation that you are still dealing with. Breaks my heart to think of what your and youngest must be going through tonight. I remember what my DD was like at that age and how utterly heart breaking it would be to not be able to give her that comfort. I wish you the best for getting through these next few days with your DD. And also for the decisions you face in the next few months - you sound quite torn over what to do next for the best. Good luck

Thanks ohm, it is awful. My baby went to sleep after a huge dinner & lots of water but is now awake & distressed & rooting, won't accept water, formula or a dummy (never would) & is just getting more & more upset. I think I'm going to have to concoct a midnight feast & hope that works. I'm so tired, it's like the early weeks of pregnancy where you just crash & can't keep your eyes open. But with no point to it.

I guess she'll will just get so tired she can't stay awake any longer? No point taking her out in the car as she always wakes when it stops & I'm probably not safe to drive anyway given how tired I feel. What a fucking nightmare this has turned into. Utmost respect to women who have dealt with this more than once.

I'm so sorry for all your going through tucking and I feel so awful for you and your little one. Like the others said, please don't feel like you can't post here x