God this is so hard - 5 years of this ttc crap.

[Picklesauage]

I'm just here for a self indulgent mope. We are blessed with a beautiful 2 1/2 year old who it took 2 years to conceive.

In September we discovered (after 14 months ttc) we were pg again. Then miscarried at 11 weeks. We were sad but have continued ttc.

My fucking period turned up this morning AGAIN. I just hate it, I just want a baby. I know it is selfish as I already have my gorgeous girl, but I am so desperate for a sibling for her.

My due date for his miscarriage is in 3 weeks, I suppose I somehow thought if I was pg by it then it would be ok, but that's not going to happen.

We have sought advice and are following Gyn advice, which means we have sex ever other day when I don't bleed. It's exhausting and heartbreaking every single month.

Sorry and thanks for reading. I just needed to say it.

I know how you feel the disappointment is heartbreaking. I lost my twins 3 years ago and only started to try again 3 months ago and every month it's heart breaking when I start my period. Hold on strong is all I can say x

Thanks Natalie. I'm so sorry for your loss and I wish I had a magic cure for us all, but sadly I can just offer a hand to hold and ear to hear.

We all went out together and actually had a nice day, took my ddd swimming and had a nice film night together. Just trying to be kind to ourselves.

Thanks again for listening.

Hi Pickle just joining along with you to have a rant. I'm sorry about your mc last year, what a cruel turn of events. My daughter is also 2 and a half and we have been trying for a year to give her a sibling, so I completely understand all of your emotions with feeling selfish and guilty because we already have children, and sadness towards your DD that she doesn't have any siblings. That is a difficult feeling to battle I find, I desperately don't want her to be an only child, I want a baby as much for her as for myself. Secondary infertility is a strange place to be in. Be kind to yourselves, and maybe plan something nice for your EDD?

Natalie so sorry about your twins, I hope you have some good luck very soon.