starting ivf cycle today! and I'm worried!

[dizzy36]

have just been for my day 2 scan and blood test. Depending on my blood test results I will start with an injection of buserelin this pm. then tomorrow buserilin and 450iu of Fostiman. I have had iui treatment before using 75iu of fostiman. I was aware that the medication for ivf is far greater than for iui because of the number of eggs required. But the thought of putting all that in me scares me.
Basically, I'm having doubts as to whether to proceed. I already have a little boy and maybe I'm just not supposed to have anymore. should I be happy with what I've got instead of risking my health (and in extreme cases, possibly my life) in trying to have a 2nd by ivf. 3 IUI's and a couse of chlomid hasn't worked so why should ivf is what I'm thinking.
I know I a being very negative. I would love another baby. I am known for over-analysing things and worrying about everything. I voiced by concerns to the nurse this morning and she was just nodded at me and explained that over-stimiulation is the main problem that can occur.
My fsh shows low ovarian reserve so I'm thinking its unlikely for me to suffer from overstimulation because doesn't look like I have a lot of eggs left!
Any comments from ladies that have had ivf or not would be appreciated. Think I'm just after some reassurance. No-one knows we've been ttc so don't really have anyone to discuss this with.

I have not had IVF so cannot relate to what you are going through, but it does sound as though you are having last minute nerves. You have got this far, and think you must have wanted to do it to get to this point. If you pulled out now, would you look back and think, what if?

Dizzy I've just had to abandon my first IVF cycle due to no response. All I can say is that you have to stay positive, your mind can work against you, I know this for sure. So, go through it with a smile on your face, open yourself up to the treatment and if it works you'll be truly blessed. If not, well, you tried and you already have your little boy!

I wish you heaps of success, and send PMA your way! You can DO this!

thank you beckif. Hospital has just phoned me and looks like won't be going ahead. My day 2 FSH is too high to proceed. Acutally came out at 20 which is way higher than its ever been. will have it checked again next month to see if can go then. Am convinced that the chlomid I was prescribed has something to do with this, I wasn't happy being on it in the first place as my fsh was slightly elevated.

beleive me I know how lucky I am to have my little boy, he is an absolute angel. I would love for him to have a little brother and sister. The ivf was my last ditch attempt. I'll go for it again next month and see what happens.

can I ask how old you are beckif, were the doctors able to tell you why you didn't respond. There is usually a reason for it, my case high fsh or maybe a different drug is needed.

Dizzy, I'm 36 (just) and ave PCOS tendancies. They have tried to tell me that my weight is an issue in absorbing the drug, but I don't think that's the whole truth. I know other much slimmer ladies that have had no response too. Sometimes I think when they don't know they'll look to the most obvious reason, i.e. my extra weight. I'll probably find out more at the next follow up appt. whenever that may be!