Hi, long time lurker, first time poster here. I'm sorry if this is rubbish and annoying.
My partner and I haven't been trying to conceive as such, but not trying not to either (iyswim). As of this morning I was five days late (my cycle isn't really regular but usually pretty short) and letting myself get my hopes up a bit. So I took a test this morning and it was negative. And of course now my period has arrived (with a vengeance).
I can't understand why I feel so sad. We don't own a house, not married or any of the things I thought I'd have before having a baby. I know I'm being silly - I'm 28, not like it's my only chance.
I just feel like I'm always waiting for my life to properly start. I'm not daft enough to think that a baby would have made everything ok, I just thought maybe I'd be lucky for once and get some of the nice things other people have.