I always promised myself that I would not write on conception forums after getting my BFP, because as happy as we are for other people who have finally got there it's very hard to read when you are still trying, but I wanted to give a little bit of hope to others since literally only a few days ago I was feeling absolutely desperate.
When I was 18 I was told I would probably never have children and just to go on the pill to sort out my wacky hormones. I tried for 3 years with no luck before graduating onto a myriad of pills, none of which worked. It was BFN after BFN, I even went to my doctor because of the awful anxiety and depression that went with the disappointment. I decided to do IVF but didn't have a lot of hope after reading statistics and so on.
On New Year's Eve I was completely sure the IVF had failed and thought I would get the bad news out the way and test, as although it was early, I felt like my period was coming. To my surprise it was a BFP! I have since tested a few times and it is still a BFP. I am being referred to the midwife today, obviously it is still really early days but I am madly happy.
I just thought this would add to the balance of stories of super-fertile people versus doom and gloom. The waiting was absolutely awful and I honestly thought it would never happen, it got to the point I would be crying in the supermarket when I saw other people with their children, thinking I would never know the privilege of motherhood. I am still absolutely amazed that it finally happened, but I guess it goes to show that it is possible.
I truly hope that everyone here will get their BFPs soon.