Ive been a long time ttc, 5 years with my husband and with an ex before that, we were not trying as such but not preventing either...anyway for most of that time, up to prob a year ago i spoke to no one i knew in rl that we were ttc, and would have to nod and smile and laugh along when ppl (inc friends) would joke that our 2 dogs were our kids, or try and brush off the question of when you having children then? This i find so hard not to turn around and ask them something like so when you going on a diet? You wouldn't ask a chubby person that, so why is it okay to ask about when your going to pop out a baby?! Do you feel its hard when your speaking to a friend who does not know your ttc or struggling to get pregnant and they are there telling you how one of their family members has had a baby and going on about it and i want to be happy for her but im there listening and its killing me inside, to hear her say that again someone else has had a baby when im struggling :( So the past year i opened up to 2 of my closest friends and told them we were ttc and going to see a specialist as we been trying so long, and i thought that it would be easier to deal with as something was being done and that i had someone to talk to about how i felt with 2 ppl who knew me, and after only a few chats and good luck with the hospital appointment, neither has mentioned our ttc and its made me feel like they dont want to know about it anymore :( And with the dr saying that there isnt anything more to be done (on clomid as i said i asked her for it, she was just going to send me back to gp and say they had done what they could, bloodtests and a hsg) and with no monitoring on clomid i dont know how they know whether its working or not? If i dont end up pregnant obv.