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Conception

When's the best time to get pregnant? Use our interactive ovulation calculator to work out when you're most fertile and most likely to conceive.

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Spotting - cruel

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Hyland · 29/10/2013 12:38

I started spotting 5 days before I'm due on, so I'm gleaming with anticipation that it will be implantation bleeding this time, Sunday and yesterday it's just brown in colour.... Feel like I'm getting obsessed with going to the toilet just to see if the colour changes to red.

No cramps and no usual signs of sore boobs before I'm due on and it's 5 days early.

This is basically torture not only month after month do we have the dreaded two week wait but we then have the occasional mess with our head moments.

Allowing us to get our hopes up and for it to only end in tears.

Try not to think about it.... Yeah right !

Is that twinge in my tummy going to be full on period cramps or just a passing butterfly flicker, or perhaps that coke lol

Perhaps I'll google again for the millionth time what's to be expected and how long it last.

Basically driven crazy by the upcoming day of the 1st where I can either do a test or know already that I have failed.... Yet again.

So with 3 days to go, I will just be lost in my thoughts and happy one minute and sad the next all coz of what I see on some tissue.

At work and trying to stay busy and yeah who am I kidding this will be in my every thought until I get an answer either way.

Cruel world to get my hopes up after soooo long of trying.

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keepswimming1 · 29/10/2013 12:59

Doesn't get any easier does

I've had my period and I still think I might be pregnant lol

Morganlove · 29/10/2013 13:58

Oh hyland I feel your pain, spotting is so cruel. I also totally understand and love the way you say about your emotions depend on what you see on a tissue - I'm there every month! To make it doubly cruel, my AF was 11 days late last cycle. Man, that hit me hard when it finally came.

Not got any words of wisdom, but just loved the way you wrote in your post, made a lot of sense when at times this whole ttc business send us a bit gaga!!! x

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Hyland · 29/10/2013 14:53

It's turnt red and I just feel deflated ....

Crazy me is now just A sad me.... Yet another bl*y month of ttc and no light at the end of the tunnel it would seem!

None of my friends or sisters have any idea all I hear from them is I shouldn't be so hard on myself.

So now I just revert back to googling how to improve my chances like bmi or coffee intake or whatever else may have the slightest impact on me still being in this situation.

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Morganlove · 29/10/2013 18:58

I'm so sorry, it's so tough. There is nothing to say to make you feel any better at the moment. Allow yourself some time to wallow, I always do. How long have you been trying? Not that that really matters on how it makes you feel each month, we've been trying for 14 months, currently on rabbit stage of cycle 15, but I was finding it hard from about month 2 onwards.

This month (I always seem to need a 'plan' to help myself move on from the wallow stage) I am drinking much more water in the lead up to ov (helps with the CM I read somewhere) and I will be eating pineapple core from day 1-5 post ov, plus eating much more veg throughout. I hate pineapple so I hope I only have to suffer it the one month!!!

Take time to look after yourself honey. x

ZingWantsCake · 29/10/2013 19:05

so sorry!

do join us on the "Just Shagging" if you want for chat, support and friendship!

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Hyland · 29/10/2013 20:13

We've been trying for 2 years if you include November.

Why do I think you haven't fallen already, if you don't mind me asking?

I don't eat vegetables so I feel for you about the pineapple, bless you lol

I do eat fruit and lots salad recently as part of my healthier eating and a chance to lower my body mass index (bmi) I'm now 12stone 3Ib ... But if the whole bmi is true about it effecting fertility perhaps this being my new goal to concentrate will improve our chances.

My Bmi is 28 so I was shocked it was so high still!

I read this: aGenerally speaking, experts define “normal weight” as a BMI (body mass index) of 19 to 24. Overweight is a BMI between 25 and 29, and a person is considered obese when she has a BMI of 30 and over. The surprising conclusion of a 2002 analysis of the famed Harvard Nurses’ Health Study 2: Gaining weight, even into the high-normal range (a BMI of 24 or above) could begin to significantly compromise a woman’s fertility.

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Financeprincess · 29/10/2013 21:25

It was such a relief to find this thread (I am new to the Conception board, haven't dared look before now, so hello everybody). I have the same experience every month; spotting and desperately hoping that it's a pregnancy, then being distraught when it turns into a period.

I lost my first ever pregnancy in May, after more than a year of trying, but I keep hoping.

So sorry that you are going through the same thing, Hyland.

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Hyland · 29/10/2013 21:46

Sorry to hear that you have had a tough time...

I wish we knew why it takes some of so long to fall, compared to others

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stelena · 29/10/2013 22:02

It's rubbish isn't it.

I'm 2 days late, 3 years ttc (Well, not trying, but not trying not to...) and normally regular as clockwork. Was refusing to believe the 2 x BFNs. But now I've started spotting. Eugh.

We'll all have our time ladies I'm sure. But for now there's &

Morganlove · 30/10/2013 11:09

Blimey hyland, 2 years, you poor thing. Keep on going, what else can you do? I take it you have been to the GP and had tests done?

Both myself and dp have had tests done and all ok. Just think it's rotten luck. No idea what else it could be. Not sure what my bmi would be, but I'm a size 8 and the docs didn't say anything about me being too underweight to conceive.

I think if you've had all the tests done (like us) and they all came back normal then it is just a case of luck. I'm glad my tests came back ok, but at the same time if they didn't then there might have been something to work on, rather than just business as normal. Does that make sense or do I just sound crazy??!!

moggle · 30/10/2013 11:24

I'd never had spotting before, so when it happened to me earlier this year I really got my hopes up. And after 2 yrs it takes a lot to get my hopes up! Now I am really trying to break the habit of looking at the tissue after wiping (sorry TMI...). For me, that way madness lies. I know when AF has started properly because I get cramps before I see blood. It's proving a hard habit to break.
We are "unexplained" too. Our private ivf referral came through this week so we're hoping to try a cycle in the new year. That sounds flippant but I'm bricking myself about the whole process. Good luck everyone xxx

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Hyland · 30/10/2013 13:34

Private ivf hey lol I'm starting to think I should do the same, what do the cost add up to for this and is their still a waiting time when it's privately

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woodhj · 30/10/2013 15:10

4 day count down until AF and I am a mad woman! when will the month after month torment stop and the morning sickness begin. I can then moan about feeling sick (obviously with a smile) and leave this tormented toilet ritual and internet searching behind!!!! :-(

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Hyland · 30/10/2013 15:34

Nice to know I'm not the only one tormented and crazy with google searches lol

I'm getting really impatient an angry these days that I haven't fallen.

I even found it difficult to be pleased for others close to me.

It took me a day for me to congratulate a very sweet girl... Same age as me who announced she had just had her first scan, I was gutted.

This whole process makes u very selfish :(

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woodhj · 30/10/2013 15:53

I find myself touching my boobs whilst driving to see if they feel different, every ache and pain is definitely as sign im pregnant!.
I have even started testing far to early with a boots tests (as ive read on here they are the best) for the slightest faintest line to appear.
I don't think im pregnant but seem to have a battle with the angel and demon on my shoulder. One convincing me im pregnant the other telling me I know im not.
I cant remember being like this last time TTC. im sure I waited until AF was due and when it didn't casually went to the doctors. Boots must think im selling the test im in the shop that often.
If we didn't laugh I think we would cry!!!

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Hyland · 30/10/2013 16:29

Ha ha I agree I too am very aware of any change in my boobs that could be a possible sign or any symptom like feeling a bit queezy.

And like you, I then talk myself into it being nothing one min and then my crazy part making me think no no this time it feels different.

Clearly no different when I don't fall :(

I to waited three months before testing and going to the doctors the first time, I was so relaxed, scared but not hyper like I am now.

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woodhj · 30/10/2013 22:28

Im going to do a clear blue early indicator tomorrow as we have two parties over the weekend and if I am pregnant the alcohol will be nil, if not a glass or to drown my sorrows.

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Hyland · 31/10/2013 00:09

Fingers crossed for u x

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Joannaclare · 09/11/2013 23:42

Hyland, I understand exactly how you feel. I guess people have said ' don't stressss try and relax' and 'it happens when you stop trying'. so thenyou think it never will. Have you had all the tests?

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