Teetering on the edge of the 2ww September bus PART 5

[wispaxmas]

Thought I would start up a new bus before the old one stalls, so ho aboard!

BFPs so far
NannyPlumForPM
mrsmummytobe
BushPrincess
Hendricks
KillashandraRee
Clareyfarey
Snoozysleeper
Coffeeguzzler
onefunkymama
Italianwiking84
Cupcake1985
Spirael
Mistyautumn
Wispaxmas

14 BFPs

Awaiting BFPs
JosiePosiePuddingAndPie ttc#2, cycle2, bfp 1st
PinkHat1 ttc#1, cycle2, bfp 1st
Widget88 ttc#1, cycle3, bfp 4th
Chubbykitty ttc#1, cycle3, bfp 5th
Bloumermaid ttc#1, cycle?, bfp 6th
RaRaZ ttc#1, cycle4, bfp 7th
Positivementakattitude ttc#1, cycle2, bfp 7th
Dontsqueezetheteabag ttc#1, cycle1, bfp 10th
MrsHende ttc#2, cycle11, bfp 10th
blamber ttc#1, cycle1, bfp 13th
Toffeecrispyum ttc#2, cycle1, bfp 14th
Worried ttc#2, cycle18, bfp 19th
Jessieagain ttc#2, cycle1, bfp 20th
coco808 ttc#1, cycle2, bfp 21st
Fox82 ttc#1, cycle10, bfp 21st
dutchss ttc#1, cycle3, bfp 21st
chattychattyboomba ttc#?, cycle2, bfp 22nd
PinkHat1 ttc#1, cycle3, bfp 22nd
Purplegeekygirl ttc#2, cycle14, bfp 22nd
Bambi27 ttc#2, cycle10, bfp 24th
crazylady2013 ttc#1, cycle2, bfp 24th
NottaLotta ttc#1, cycle3, bfp 24th
Pocopearl ttc#2, cycle1, bfp 25th
ImaginaryHat ttc#1, cycle5, bfp 25th
ExactlyWhat ttc#3, cycle1, bfp 25th
Breakingbadaddict ttc#1, cycle3, bfp 25th
cheesysmile ttc#1, cycle 3, bfp 26th
Greenface ttc#1, cycle2, bfp 26th
onelifeonechance ttc#1, cycle3, bfp 26th
mama31 ttc#2, cycle3, bfp 27th
fifi669 ttc#2, cycle6, bfp 28th
Daisychain44 ttc#2, cycle7, bfp 28th
Monkette ttc#?, cycle?, bfp 28th
MrsB2013 ttc#1, cycle2, bfp 28th
NeuroticSweetTalk ttc#1, cycle1, bfp 28th
Millymolly01 ttc#2, cycle3, bfp 28th
GillyBillyWilly ttc#1, cycle4, bfp 29th
DisneyDiva87 ttc#1, cycle4, bfp 29th
Armylovin ttc#2, cycle8, bfp 30th
Lucyfluff ttc#4, cycle2, bfp 30th
Refoca ttc#2, cycle1, bfp 30th
Willows tree ttc#2, cycle1, bfp?
Theborrower ttc#2, cycle2, bfp?
M33r ttc#1, cycle9, bfp?
Seatfor5 ttc#4, cycle5, bfp?
internationallove985 ttc#?, cycle?, bfp?
ThoraNomiki ttc#2, cycle3, bfp?
Rockyroller123 ttc#1, cycle2, bfp?
BlueC2 ttc#?, cycle?, bfp?
Lulubelle26 ttc#1 cycle3, bfp?
Pencilsandprams ttc#2, cycle4, bfp?

Ahhh Gilly so happy for you!

Congratulations to all the other bfp's!

Congrats gilly!

So pleased for you!

Not sure I'd be able to wait until tomorrow with a cb test so maybe buy two when you're out ;-)

That makes more sense mrsV! Until af is here, I'd keep testing, I had a late bfp last time as I said

I also lurk your thread I sound like some crazy stalker woman and wanted to say congratulations Gilly, here's to a healthy 9 months for you...June will be a lovely time to have a baby

Thanks choccy, how late was it?? It's a horrible waiting game, you'd think oh af is late, oh yeh I'm pregnant, but oh no!! Your body is playing mind games!!! X

Ahh, MissV, I understand now. I know someone who had bfns all the way up to 17dpo and a bfp at 18, so there's hope yet!

And yes, Gilly you would be 5 weeks, though depending on when during that time you ov'd you might get corrected when you have the dating scan. They assume that everyone ovulated 2 weeks after the start of their period.

Massive congrats gilly so pleased for you :)

Thankyou to all those who congratulated me.

It's hard to know where to start. I've done nothing but get emtional all day. I've gone from feeling euthoric to lower than a snakes belly. My period turned up this morning and I did another test and it was negaitive so it was obviously a chemical pregnancy. In a way I wish I hadn't have tested yesterday as I would not have known either way, but at least I got one day with my precious miracle to tell him/her how much they were loved and wanted. I am actually crying writing this message. To all of you who have your B.F.P's tell your unborn babies how much you love them.
Ironically last night when I told him he was delighted of course he was shocked at first. He really opened up to me and said he didn't think he could have kids as he was married for 10 years and they had been trying. I didn't ask about IVF he would have told me had he wanted me to know. His ex wife has since met someone else and been blessed with a son so he obviously thought it was him. Possibly the reason why he was happy to go condom free. We were looking at prams and cots on the internet. He told me he wanted a daughter. He stayed over last night and just held me in his arms and felt more loving than than sex. Also testing yesterday gave me the opportunity of finding out he felt about having children. Any way I woke up and 7am and I had came on my period. Although upset himself he was very supportive and said we can try again but to be honest I don't know if I want to. He keeps texting and asking how I am. I think I'm staring to fall in love with him, and the wierd thing is the night I met him I wasn't even supposed to be going out any way back to ttc at this moment the way I'm feeling I'm not sure that I want another baby. I want the one I was carrying. I may feel ready to try again in a few months, so I don't think I'll be joining the October bus. It's just wondering now which contraception which to use as I'm now scared to become pregnant I don't want to go on the pill because if/when I'm ready to try again it could take a while to get out of system and I'm not getting any younger. Will probably just ask him to use condoms till I feel ready to try again. I wish I didn't have the day off work tomorow as I need to be occupied. However having the day to myself might be what I need to allow myself to have a damn good cry. I do have to keep myself together though as I very nearly went under when I lost my first baby. I was destraught. I know I have to count to count my lucky stars I have my D.D. Life still goes on though it has to. I've promised D.D and her friend that I will take them for a meal.
Congratualtions to Gilly and Daisy. I'm very pleased for you both. I shoudn't say this and believe me I'm in no mood for arguing with people at all but I was actually very saddened that Writer congratulated every other B.F.P aside from me was my baby not as percious as everyone else's. Although in her defence she may not have known and if that's the case I apologise.

Good look to everyone on your exiting journey. I hope your'e all blessed with happy pregnancies and healthy babies. I may come back to the conceptions thread if when I feel ready to try again. I'll probably still be lurking anyway. Although I'll probably just stay on mumsnet
Sorry for the very long post but I obviously had a lot to talk about.
Thankyou also for eveyones support over the last few months not only on this thread but on others as well I know we haven't always seen eye to eye but I know everyone meant well. xxx

I'm sorry for your loss, international, and no one's baby is less special than anyone else's. All I can think is that you got a lot of people's backs up (mine included), but that's not to say that anyone would have wished this on you.

Luckily you're no longer lying to him, and if you do end up trying again do be sure to keep him in the loop. It sounds like he would be excited to be a dad.

OMG GILLLLYYYY!! I'm welling up here and I couldn't even wait to finish catching up post post a message!!

CONGRATULATIONS!! I'm sooo happy for you. Omg omg omg!!

You are my hope now as we both were on the same pill and sorta started the same time.

Omg this is amazing. Even my DP is congratulating you as he heard my squeal from downstairs lol

This is amazing!!

@ JellyBean!!!

Never mind your husband, I can hear your squeals too!!!!!

Ha ha same here!!!

When is your AF/BFP due JellyBean ??

Haha I'm just so excited for her!!

Emotions are everywhere bcos having a proper AF now. So crying is very easier and so is happiness. Women are crazy

International, sorry to hear AF got you. I hope this is the start of a longer term commitment between you and the fella though. If/when you do ttc again, I hope you get the child you both want without too much waiting or heartbreak.

Writer - I finally got AF on 27th after a cycle of 79days so I feel this is positive news. And it was very painful and very hormonal... Like it used to be :)

79 days!!!!! Jesus!!!!!

I dread to think how many times I'd have POAS in that time period

Good luck to you in this cycle!!

Lol it was 102days time before. Start using my clearblue f monitor now so I can pin point it a bit. Xx

And thank you, trying to be more chilled out this cycle x

Hi Wispa and Refoca. Thank you for your support and kind words. It's very much appeiciated. The guilt I'm feeling in not being able to carry my beautiful baby is beyond emense. I'm sorry for posting again but it wouldn't have felt right to not thank you both and like I said I'm still lurking for now. I don't know why but it doesn't seem right to just leave xx
Also Writer. I hope you're well. x

MissV mine was 40 days.

International, I'm so sorry for your loss. No baby is more important than any other. In this circumstance, maybe it happened purely for the reason for you to tell your partner you were pg. You have had a perfect response from him and with that can ttc one day with him 'properly'. I wish you all the luck for the future.

Just had to board hop to say congrats to gilly, we were on May / June thread together...