Hi everyone.
I have just been reading some of the other threads, and it has given me some reassurance that I am not going through this alone.
Here is my story.....
4years ago I met a guy who I thought I loved, you know what its like, you meet someone new and you get the butterflies in your tummy and can't wait for that next phone call! Wel, that guy turned out to be the biggest mistake of my life. He shattered my confidence, played terrible mind games, made me do things I didn't want to do, never took me out,and basically, the 3 years I was with him was just a waste of my life.
I thought to myself, 'i can't leave him, I don't want to be with him, but I am stuck!' And I also thought to myself that I never wanted kids......especially to a guy like him! Now I know most of you will be thinking, 'why didn't you leave?' Well I thought the same every day 'why haven't I got the balls to leave him.'
I have never felt so low, so lovely, and so unloved in all my life. Then one day, I had just had too much and ended it! I had never felt such a weight lifted, it felt great.
A couple of weeks after leaving him (and getting flowers off him, 'i love you and cant live without you' messages) I met some one else.
This guy, Graham, was so so so gorgeous! We clicked immediately and I knew it was love at first sight. Graham had children from previous relationships, 6 to be precise, (to 2 different women) who I met and fell in love with. His 2 youngest live with us. Our relationship was amazing, passionate, loving.....all the things I could ever ask for. There was just one more thing.........I wanted a baby! Grahams eyes lit up when I told him and he said he wanted a baby with me (his previous girlfriends tret him badly) so we decided to give it a go. BUT....I told him u had a feeling I couldn't have children. So off to the doctors I went and I had many blood tests, a scan/camera to check for PCOS which all came back negative. Blood results also showed that I was not ovulating. So, the doctor advised me to loose weight.....this really annoyed me as I was a healthy size 12, but he said it could help stimulate the ovaries. After loosing a stone I went back to see the doctor who then prescribed me Chlomid tablets. He gave me 2 months worth and told me to take the first tablet on day 2 of ny period. I thought 'great,' as my periods are so irregular I can go for months without one, but 2 days later I came on. I was over the moon! So, I am now day 26 of my cycle. I had my results from day 21 blood test which shows, that instead of the usual 2.1 progesterone levels, they are now (after chlomid) a huge 133!! I am so excited. I am feeling crampy type pains in my stomach, which could possibly be the start of my next period, but some people say it could be implantation cramps.
What I would like to know, has anyone else's progesterone levels been that high, what do they mean, and has anyone had implantation cramps and what do they mean?
Many thanks for taking the time to read, and best of luck to you all xx