Brook no arguments, smack those rats. It's time for us all to become PSEPP! Come join us, we are getting our BFPs no matter what.

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PSEPP = Pee Stick Endorsed Pregnant Person.

Come on Brookers make yourselves at home

Have pm'd you, biscuits

Thank you for clearing that up Geekster - I can go to bed now and stop wracking my brains!

You're welcome biscuits

Morning is it Tuesday yet?

Ooh scarlett is naughty! Does she not realise I need to obsess about someone else's life so as to distract myself from my own seriously brooking hard for tues bud

Tuesday?!?! I hear they have shops at the seaside too, m'dear.

Brook brook brook

Hi everyone, I woke up with an unexplainable urge to check the thread. Now I'm here I'm clearly just in time for Scarlett's news!

How are you all doing? I've only read back for the last few messages so excuse me if I've missed anything major.

Kitty how are you getting on? Is the next step a scan on Monday? Sounds like your follies are doing fab.

Geek I'm very jealous of all the pies and ales.

Beedle have you been for your appointment? Sorry if I've missed the post.

AFM I've finally stopped bleeding yesterday post miscarriage, god knows when I'll get AF though. I've had a blood test yesterday and my HCG levels have dropped below 25 so I don't need to have anymore tests. I've spent the entire week crying/getting irrationally angry. I was due back at work today but I've been given a sick note by my doctor for another week as I'm really not ready.

DH has been great but I'm scared he's going to lose patience with me fast if I don't pull myself together soon. We have had quite a lot on since all this started with friends birthdays etc. I've not gone to anything since I got my BFP and I really don't know when I'll be able to face our friends again. I've even avoided going to the supermarket in case I bump into anyone. I've got one of my oldest friends coming over today, I'm dreading it to be honest but she is insisting on coming. I'm also desperate to start ttc (god knows why as its never worked before) I made DH dtd earlier. I'm officially a crazy person. Someone please slap some sense into me

hey cups glad you're feeling a but better, ignore this lot they seem to think cd36 is pias-worthy although if my calculation is correct I'm only actually 16 dpo and my longest lp has been 16 days so I'm counting no chickens yet!

I'm sure this is all part of a big practical joke to make me poas when every time I've done that before af has rocked up an hour later...

at boo you haven't slept through the bank holiday!

toilet trip counts today = 4 so far and about to go fir a fifth

Oh cups it's still so soon, I'm not surprised you're feeling like this. How's dh in himself? Being stoic? I'm so glad you have more time off. Do any of your friends know what happened?

I think it's natural to want to ttc again asap. And you never know, they do say you're more fertile after a mc. But equally don't put too much pressure on anything. I'm sorry I'm a bit useless, maybe someone who's experienced a mc will be more helpful. But do not feel bad for or underestimate the impact of this. X

Oh Cups lovely, it's such a confusing time. Can I recommend you speak to a counsellor? I really think it would help. Your clinic should offer this service. I think it will do you some good, and help you decide when you're ready to start facing hinges again.

As for not feeling ready to do things, you just need to take your time to heal. There's no point forcing yourself to put a brave face on. It will just make things harder in the long run. You need time to grieve. I don't think MrC will get annoyed. How is he holding up?

Scarlett when are you back from hollibobs? Coming back via a supermarket though, yeah?!

I'm not a massive fan of the bale. Also a bit too pretty boyish for me.

My sodding fingers. Things. Not hinges. I am in no way suggesting you do some DIY.

cups oh bud, it's soooo good to hear from you! I can't say I know what you're going through as I've never been pregnant but it really was so cruel to have something taken away like that. I know you're keen to crack on but how about a break for a while? Be kind to yourself and your Dh xxxx

ah this is where everyone is!
I best join the que for Scarlettsbfp. although how she expects us to wait till tues ill never know!
oh cups you describe how I felt exactly. you really can't rush yourself to feel better. I thought everyone was getting fed up of me but I bet they weren't and I bet mr c isn't either. have any next steps been discussed? something to focus on.

I know Scarlett its like AF is in business with the pee stick companies. I can't believe how much I spent on tests the other week. I should have bought myself a new dress, it would have been a wiser investment. That said, surely you don't wee that much normally.........

MrCups is doing ok, he still has the odd sad moment but I think he has accepted it. He's back to work and training for an event he has coming up so I think being busy is helping. In a way I wanted to go back to work just to have something to do but I'm still very raw from it all so I don't want to risk crying in front of my patients. I've been for counselling a few days ago through the clinic. I'm a bit embarrassed as I was feeling particularly angry and spent the whole time slagging off the clinic. I think it was too soon to see someone. I've got another appointment in a couple of weeks. On a positive note I had requested a follow up appointment for a review of our cycle and the earliest available was January. I even offered to pay and was told I couldn't be seen any earlier. I complained to the counsellor and she spoke to one of the consultants and got us an appointment for the end of October.

Oh and yes, scan is tomorrow. Please brook for 18mm follies (and preferably 2!)

Oh Cups good to see you, I'm so pleased the councillor got you an earlier appointment. Be kind to yourself and don't hide your feelings from Mr C. Be kind to yourself love {{{{hugs}}}}

Brooking for your scan tomorrow Kitty :)

Geek I like Christian Bale but no no no, he's too old for our man!! Perhaps Chris Hemsworth? (Will try to link him later)

Waves to Maybe and Trix :):)

yum yum couldn't resist a Google now

cups!!!! for you. I'm not surprised you're not ready to go back to work yet. Keeping busy is one thing, but having to hold things together for predetermined hours at this stage wouldn't be good for you. Hell, I'm still having meltdowns two months on (albeit they thankfully only last 24 hours now). Your clinic is officially shit. I really, really hope that when you are ready to move forward you will vote with your feet. I think it was just the one cycle that you were forced to go with this particular clinic for wasn't it? I can't believe they would make you wait so long for a review meeting, particularly in light of it being a miscarriage. I am sure MrC will understand that it takes longer for you to get over these things than for him. After all, no matter what the outcome of an IVF cycle, your hormones have been seriously messed about with for weeks. They will take time to settle. I think it was a good thing that you were angry at your counselling session. Apart from them no doubt having seen it all before, if enough patients are honest with her about the way the clinic acts, she may be able to raise changes that are needed with management on the basis of anonymised statistics.

scarlett you were the first thing I thought of when I woke up this morning! I'd been hoping for a nice lie in til midday but was itching to see if there was any news so had to get up. So pleased AF is still staying away. Tomorrow's Tuesday, right??

maybe that's how I feel about Henry Cavill, weird, huh?

Really boo I think that picture makes him look older than Bale! However, he is someone I would be prepared to compromise on

Geek

Oh, I bloody love Chris Hemsworth. And his brother. I lived him in home and away sad case

I'm pleased you've seen someone Cups and that she's fighting your corner. Is there another clinic you can transfer to? Please don't think all NHS IVF is like this, some places are brilliant x

I'm not a fan of him either Geek. Such a big jaw.....

Now you ladies leave Henry and his manly jaw alone!!

Looks like we're agreed on Chris though!!

You've got to love a bit of RPJ too.....

kitty brooking lots for your scan tomorrow.

cups it's great to hear from you. Also it's great that the counsellor could get you an earlier appointment. It's crazy that January was the closest they would give you. Really hope you and MrC are doing better. However as everyone else has said take time. I've been thinking lots about you over past few days.

maybe who is RPJ?

RPJ?? do tell link