mother natures starting to grate

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Hi this is my first time posting apologies in advance for moaning! So im 28 dh is 40 we are ttc #1 came off the pill @ xmas. Now comming to the end of cycle 6 i am in the tww but to be honest i know im not preg. Used opk's for cycles 4 & 5 & wound myself up in knots so decided not to this month & to just try to relax.Currently feeling v emotional i diddnt expect to fall preg straight away (have had cervical treatment & an ovarian cyst) but i also diddnt expect this rollercoaster either. We go on hol's on 24th & was so looking forward to it because we havent been since honeymoon (4 yrs ago) just wanted 1 week not thinking about anything BUT af is due... you guessed on 24th. Im already starting pmt symptoms so i know shes gonna turn up so im going to spend my long awaited hol dealing with af & being reminded everytime i go to the loo that im not preg AGAIN. I know theres people much worse off than me but i just really needed a moan & to ask if any of you could get mother nature to give me a break!!!

Oh bless you, I have been TTC for 18 months and it probably isn't much consolation, but the first 6 months were actually the worst, in a way. Definitely more of an emotional rollercoaster anyway. You think it's going to happen every month and I would be gutted and crying when AF came. Between 6-9 months my brain kind of caught up that it might not happen straight away and getting upset and crazy every month wasn't going to increase the chances of it happening. Also it was around 6 months I realised that if you type in "Is X a pregnancy symptom" to google, it doesn't matter WHAT X is, there'll be someone on an internet forum or blog who did have that before she got her BFP. Also as time goes by, you experience more of the the possible obvious two week wait symptoms and had AF come as normal anyway, so you naturally ease off the symptom spotting.

You are allowed to moan even though there are people with it worse than you! Do you have any hobbies you can get more into, or new hobbies or things you've wanted to do for a while... I found the best way to get my mind off TTC was to get my mind "on" something else, if you see what I mean. For me it has been taking up running and then starting a small hobby type business for a bit of extra cash. I don't get upset when AF comes these days (though of course feel a bit of disappointment) and have kicked the OPK habit too. We have started down the road of fertility investigations too which has calmed me somewhat too - feel like there's nothing more we can do at the moment.

Anyway YES mother nature, please give everyone on here a break!!

Actually I agree with moggle, ttc just shy of 2 years here and the first 6 months were full of obsession and disappointment. Now I know my body better I don't really symptom spot any more, and as I don't expect to be pregnant I'm not sad when my period comes. I hope you get your BFP soon.

I hope you're right I've been ttc for 8 months and still in the very sad stage but managed not to use opks up until this month so as not to get 'obsessed' but not seem to have helped!! Ugh...just want my bfp and a beautiful baby!!

Hi moggle thanx for your reply i know i just have to calm down and try not think about it, but its easier said than done!I have already banned myself from googling symptoms as it just drives me even more crazy! Your right about distractions ive been threatening to start running for ages so when i get back from hols im going to do it. Best of luck with your investigations i hope it all goes well, ill keep my fingers crossed for you.

TWinkly thanx for your reply im glad it gets easier to deal with, im an all or nothing kind of girl & find it v hard to not obsess. Dh tells me im a control freak but this is something i cant control & im just gonna have to except that & clam down! Hope you also get your bfp soon.