Like my Progesterone, i am down down down

[Mon26]

Well, about to burst into tears.

After 3 miscarriages under my belt, I decided to get an appointment with the NHS for infertility, which will be the 9th of April. However, during this last period I have been having a "Monitored Cycle". (My last miscarriage was the 7th of January).

During the Monitored Cycle every phase seemed fine with a fine ovulation... however, today it was the last one, and doctor said that his suspicions were correct that I seem to have little progesterone which provokes and would explain my miscarriages.

I am gutted! I don't know what to do. i feel ugly, old (38/39), defeated and alone today. I know I am not. Most likely I am being a bit of a drama queen, but i have been wanting it so much.

So, where do I go to now?

He said i should test this weekend and/or next Wednesday to see if I am pregnant and to call him back with the results, so that if was to need progesterone he could give me some pessaris...(?)

Anyways, but also? if I did not get pregnant this month, what happens afterwards? How do I ensure my progesterone levels are the correct, and why are they low??

I just feel so useless, I saw a pregnant women today on my way back home and felt not just emotional, but empty and without a purpose. And, if it is normal to get in a mood like this, how do I raise and feel bright again?

Hi Mon26

So sorry to hear about your TTC journey so far. I am not surprised you are feeling a bit down, you have been through a rough ride so far and I am sure that the news today about your progesterone felt like the last straw.

The good news is that I think low progesterone is easily treatable via pessaries and/or medication. It seems that you don't have an issue conceiving so addressing low progesterone levels might make your next pregnancy viable. It might not feel like good news but is actually a positive step.

I also think that low progesterone can actually really affect your mood too. I remember my sister went through IVF where they basically reduce your hormones to a base level (eg. menopausal) and she said she felt really fat, tired and ugly and as soon as they raised the hormone levels back up, she felt so much better almost instantly.

So keep your chin up and keep your appointment at the fertility clinic (unless you are pregnant by then!).

Good luck and chin up.

GL

Dear GreenLizard,

Thank you very much for your reply. I read it yesterday or Wednesday evening and I recall the relieving feeling I had. Wednesday night to Thursday, I slept like a baby. Fell asleep reading in bed and DH put away the kindle and glasses!

Next morning I woke up brand new, I slept thru all night. And I had the ocurrence to take a PT. It came up positive, BFP, so I called the DR. and he asked me to go visit him, and short story he gave me some pessaris of progesterone to take for 6/8 weeks.

Yesterday afternoon I went to the SHiatsu/Acupuncturist I am going for fertility, and he said that I might not need it, that he has been "keeping" my body warm and ready" and that it should respond. And this is how I feel/felt, wanting to strive and produce m own progesterone.. and wondering if I should wait to see if my body produces it naturally....

So, again back in the trenches. We discussed it widely last night with my husband and we have decided to take it. So, here I am this morning with my first pessari.

I feel way better that Wednesday. I was truly defeated... and I am still concern, but I do drastically feel better. Now, I will never know if I had not needed the progesterone, but I am happy with the decision.

Thank you very much Greenlizard for your support in the down hours, it is highly appreciated! Wish you all the best !

Thaaaaaanks and hugs!