So I received an unintended metaphorical slap in the face yesterday and would like to share:
I have been TTC a 2nd baby for 3 years. After almost 2 years I finally got pregnant but then had an early mc. 6 months later I got pregnant again, but sadly had a mmc at 12 weeks. I've since been trying for a further 7 months but no more luck yet. Was discussing TTC with a friend yesterday who knows my story and who is also TTC. She innocently asked me whether I'd come to terms with the fact that I might never have another child...I said no I hadn't and that at 36 I feel I have a few more years to try yet and am hopeful it will eventually turn out ok.
But her question made me feel a bit panicky - I am nowhere near ready to accept that, and feel desperately sad at the thought that I wouldn't have another child. But am I kidding myself that I will have a successful pregnancy..??