I feel so angry.

[Littlebearlost]

I am very lucky to have a ds. We were also very lucky to conceive him quickly.
However I was left with retained product after an emergency c section and I think that is what is causing us to be unable to have another baby.
I just feel so cheated. I keep thinking, if only. If only that hadn't happened. I am having an ultrasound next week and then will go privately for an hsg late next month. I am ovulating on time. My cycles are regular. I can only conclude that I have been left with scar tissue from the retained product. Reading around on the net (dr google) it seems that fertility issues are common after retained product and infection.
I feel so angry. I'd like to sue someone but know it isnt really anyone's fault...just one of the those things I suppose. But I've been left infertile and with agonising ovulation each month. Not what I expected.

Hi littlebear

So sorry for what you are going through. Its great that you have tests in the pipeline as there is likely things which can be done to help correct any damage. Yes infection can sadly cause scar tissue which impacts on fertility. I can empathise with your situation 100%.

Unfortunatley for me I havent got any children. My first and only pregnancy ended in miscarriage nearly 3 years a go. I got pregnant easily but nothing since. Like you I have regular cycles. It appears that I had a silent infection from the miscarriage which caused scarring around fallopian tubes. A recent laproscopy has cleared some of this damage and prior to that I had 2 failed ivf cycles.

Anyway, I am not trying to depress you. Just wanted to hold your hand and let you know you are not alone. My heart has been broken for such a long time. I would love to be a mum and it makes me feel very sad to think I had perfect fertility which has now been damaged due to a pregnancy that didn't even give me a baby.

On the positive side, my recent operation may have improved my chances a bit and both natural and assisted conceptiont are possible for me but not definate that I will have a baby.

I suppose I am trying to say it is fine to feel sad but also try and stay hopeful that the tests may lead to something which could make things better which is very likely. Good luck.

Hi Little I'm not sure this is entirely the same but I just wanted to give you some hope.
My Dsis had a terrible EmCS with her first - she got a huge infection immediately after caused by 'a retained product' they weren't sure exactly what, and after 2 years of pain and period problems she got an appointment at the hospital where they finally arranged to have a look with laparoscopy - they found her womb stuck to the wall of her abdomen, other bits weren't in correct position and so so much scar tissue. They done what they could to rectify her insides and told her she almost certainly would never have any more children.
That was 8 years ago -
she gave birth again 6 months ago, naturally (something else they told her she'd never do because of the damage inside) She'd given up after years of trying everything that she could and her miracle happened, I sincerely hope that it happens for you too. Good luck xx

I cross posted with you Sarlat Positive thoughts and best of luck to you too xx

Thank you. Xxx
Sarlat that must be really hard. I can't really imagine how hard that must be, I hope that the lap might have enough of the damage to make a difference for you.
I'm very grateful for my ds, I just feel sad that my fertility has possibly been damaged. The worst thing is that I went to my dr early on after delivery and said something was wrong but they said that likelihood of retained product after a c section was really low and it was just normal c section pain. I knew it wasn't. Eventually they gave in and an ultrasound confirmed retained product. I just think even if something had been done sooner... It's all if onlys and what ifs...

Sending you positive wishes too.

cleared enough of the damage