Sigh
I feel like deleting my Facebook and hiding. I should have just under 5 weeks to go until a wee wrinkly bundle was screaming and demanding all my attention. I should be off work now for months. I should feel knackered and emotional for different reasons. I should be celebrating the last Festive season with just the 2 of us (plus 2 hairy dog children lol).
Instead, I'm feeling all bitter and upset at friends and family and feel like shite for feeling like shite and being a jealous bugger. All the bloody adverts and programmes make me feel like I did at the 12 week scan when it all went wrong. I feel as though everyone else has moved on and I'm causing a big deal still and should've gotten over it by now.
I want to say that 2012 can seriously hurry up and get tae, it's been a hard year. I know many other people on this board feel the same. I'm TOTALLY DREADING the due date as no one else will even acknowledge it, but I've booked holidays off work around it so I can have a bit of a wallow and get pissed (providing I'm unable to due to 'cooking a bun'!)
2013 WILL be better and that's my new mantra over the next wee while. Just needed to get it off my chest x