Really struggling with work and TTC

[littleshamrock]

I've been TTC for three years with no success, basically told that we will need ICSI but that there is no funding for it as we already have our DD.

We don't have the money to self fund and there's times of the month I feel lucky to have my dd and can accept the situation. At others I feel so low and down and am struggling with my job. I work as a nurse in an area where most of our patients have alcohol and drug problems and come in repeatedly having gone home and continued their lifestyle. I just feel so angry that the NHS will fund their treatment endlessly when I have worked since 16, looked after myself and done nothing to land myself in this situation and that its affecting how impartially I treat my patients. I do my job properly and would never let this issue actually affect how I look after people but I feel so angry and desperate when I think about it.

Anyone else experienced a similar situation?

Hi Shamrock - I hear you.!!! I've been TYC my first for 27 months and some days I feel like I can't go on. I get so angry about. It's such a hard thing to go through. I was told yesterday after all my tests were finally completely that it's Unexplained Infertility and even after all this tie we still have another year to get on the list fr IVF then face a further 2 year wait - I'm gutted.

I wish you good news soon

Hi Little

I'm really sorry to hear about your ttc journey. I've been ttc my first for 2 and a half years. I'm a paediatric nurse so I'm surrounded by babies all the time. Obviously we have child protection issues which can be very difficult to deal with. We also have a lot of teenage parents, unemployed parents etc.. I find that I have to try really hard not to think about any of it while at work. I find the mantra that its not MY child helpful. It doesn't matter how many children these people have, it's not taking away any chance of me getting my baby.
I would try to view it that addiction is an illness & your patients are as entitled to their treatment as we are to fertility treatment. The NHS is flawed in a lot of ways but it is not your patients fault that their treatment is funded but what you need is not.

Have you considered egg donation if possible to pay for ICSI at a much reduced cost? If you are quite sure you are not going to be able to have private IVF maybe it would be worth getting your GP to refer you for counselling to help you come to terms with it all.

I really hope you get your miracle Little