Hi. I'm just looking for a place to vent my feelings really as I don't think there's an 'answer' as such to my problem. I lost a baby last November when I was 5 months pregnant. It was our 1st pregnancy. Although we both love children and I had been terribly broody for a couple of years beforehand the pregnancy was not planned and I was suprised how it stressful it was for both of us. We do not own our own house, the house we currently live in is not suitable for a baby and my boyfriend is 'between jobs.' Also my boyfriend really seemed to be freaked out at the prospect of becoming a father at a time when none of his friends are doing this. Loosing our baby was incredibly hard for us both but was also a very bonding experience. We decided that we would wait a while before trying again and maybe live abraod for a year beforehand. We are currently looking into going to Australia for a year. The thing is I have started to feel broody again in the last couple of months and it is getting me down not knowing when we are going to be ready to have a family. It was such a difficult time for us as a couple when we found out that I was pregnant that it has put me off talking about it. I've even thought about 'accidentally' becoming pregnant again even though I know that this caused a lot of problems between us last time. I fantasise about a time when we will both happily make the decision together to have a baby but fear this time might not come.