Some company, please. I'm a bit freaked out.

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Hello,

I haven't posted for a really really long time and I've name-changed (I think) because I really don't want to go at all public yet. So, if you recognise me from previous posts or (much worse) real life, please please don't out me.

So, in a nutshell, I have been unsucessfully TTC for over five years. I had one early MC ages ago and one cycle of IVF with a really poor response. Over a year ago we were told that I probably had premature ovarian failure, that there was no point in more IVF and that I would almost certainly go through menopause in the next couple of years. I was a very difficult time, obviously, but we were always realistic and coped pretty well. We grieved for a bit then picked ourselves up and got on with accepting and adjusting.

So, fast-forward to now and with several people close to us for the second time and with my periods showing no signs of stopping, we started to wonder if we'd given up to soon and I started tracking my cycles a bit again and we started a bit of low-key trying (we'd never actually stopped, of course, but we started paying attention to timing). I'm now on day 27, 13 DPO, and I tested yesterday and there was a faint, but visible line. Twice.
I've tested again today and there is a still faint, but more distinct pink line.

Ummm, so, I'm pregnant, aren't I?

We (husband and I) are a bit freaked out and have no idea what to do with ourselves. We can't tell anyone real and we can't actually believe it, but I am, aren't I?

I just really need some company until I'm more sure and less overwhelmed, but please no baby-dust or hugs or any of that stuff, I hate all that.

Thanks.

That's a lovely story, thank you. Actually, all our consultants have been very frank and honest and I couldn't fault them, we are both medical, so perhaps that makes a difference. The consultant at the early menopause clinic told us, quite casually, that about 10% of women get pregnant after diagnosis of POF!

Anyway, determined to be more positive today. Quicker, clearer line on today's test and no more spotting so far.

Today I am pregnant...

yes you are and you are going to enjoy every moment :-)
very very very happy for you! Rest when you can xx

great news. Spotting and bleeding are so worrying but i'll add a friend's story- perfect first pregnancy but with second (which she struggled to conceive) she spotted and bled throughout only to deliver a healthy full term baby. There was never a reason found. Spotting around the time a period would be due is very common and can happen fairly frequently even on the second missed period. Fingers crossed for you.

Oh I am keeping everything crossed for you, what a story, you really have been through the mill.
I had a bit of spotting with this pregnancy for about 5 days, I thought it was all over but am now 19 weeks. I know how brutal those first few weeks are, I had to break down the time in to 3 week chunks and have scans every 3 weeks just to keep me sane. I also had some beta HCG levels taken 48 hours apart to check they were going up which helped me get through that weekl of spotting. Try and do as little as possible, rest and look after yourself. Good luck!

I have everything crossed for you. I know 2 women who had babies naturally after long term infertility (9 years plus). Actually quite a few of my friends were late babies whose mothers had tried for 10 plus years after they were born, in the days before IVF was widely available.

Spotting can be totally normal in pregnancy. I spotted with all 3 of my successful pregnancies but not at all when I miscarried. With my second baby, conceived after a secondary infertility diagnosis, I spotted constantly from 3.5 to 6.5 weeks. HCG testing, then an early scan, kept me sane, well sane-ish anyway.

I wish you all the luck in the world. Just take one day at a time.

Just to tell you another good news story, DH's aunt conceived narturally after 10 years and 3 rounds of IVF (the month afterher last failed cycle) and then again 7 years later at 44, she thought it was the menopause and it was her DS!

thats good news OP Im glad. have you thought about when your going to tell your doctor?

Morning,

I was brave this morning and did a CB Digital and got a "Pregnant" - the long-term ttc-ers holy grail!

So, thank you all so very much you kind strangers. I now believe I am pregnant and I'm even beginning to see I have as good a chance as anyone else of making it...

Oh, and I'm going to call the GPs on Monday.

And also the Early Menopause clinic to see what I should do about my appointment next month!

brilliant! :)

oh cross post! love to hear what the early menopause clinic have to say- expect they will be so happy for you.

Brilliant! So happy for you.

Keep us posted OP

hi just passing to see how your doing and loving the fact the answer is great!! keep us updated probable xx

Fantastic news. Now stop testing, especially with those digital buggers, you can get obsessively hung up on how many weeks it thinks you are . You are pregnant and this is wonderful, wonderful news.

We were told we had a less than five percent chance of ever conceiving. When I phoned my consultant to tell him I was pregnant with my son his immediate response was "you can't be". Two heartbreaking miscarriages followed his birth, and then we more or less gave up. For various r

Stupid fingers

For various reasons at the end of 2010 (none of them bad) we had sex once in a period of nearly three months. Dd conceived and is sitting in her high chair next to me. Six years ago I was convinced I would never be a mother. There's two children here to prove me wrong.

Just passed by to see how things are going, great news about the CB Digi! might have to check expiry date on mine

Chubfuddler that's a really great story, thanks for sharing as it's just what I needed to hear today :)

Hope things are still going well for OP

Hello,

All good here. Well, when I say good I mean feeling absolutly awful, but I'm taking that to be a good sign.

We have had friends for the weekend who we really weren't ready to tell so I made excuses for not drinking, but then may have given myself away by practically falling asleep on the table at half nine last night. It is extraordinary how such a tiny thing can make you feel so drained.

I have also told the rest of my family and they've all been wonderful.

But really, that's enough about me, I'm beginning to feel quit embarrassed by a having my own thread full of people being so nice to me!

Enjoy it! Please keep updating I've been lurking and am so pleased for you

Completely thrilled for you! Congratulations!!

Well, I've rung the early menopause clinic and they were very nice; the consultants secretary is going to ask her what I should do and call me back.
And I'v got a GP appointment for Wednesday.

WhosPickleisThatOnion I'm lurking on the Feb 2013 thread over in pregnancy, but not brave enought to join.

I found out yesterday that a very dear friend, who I've know almost all my life, is also pregnant after an absolutely awful year of IVF and loss. It almost feels too good to be true and I'm quite overwhelmed and tearful - blaming the hormones, obviously.

Ah! Hope to see you soon. I am stupid early so I am being very cautiously happy.

Got a BFP something silly like 8 DPO.

Thats amazing news about your friend, me and a good friend got pregnant within a week of each other and we were delighted but it made us nervous, like you said in a too good to be true way. But sometimes really good things do happen!

Hello,

I thought I'd bring this back just to say that I'm still here!
Eight weeks tomorrow and we saw a perfect-size-for-dates little embryo with a heartbeat on an early scan this week.

Thank you all for being so nice when I was feeling very mad.

That's very exciting OP - I think it gives lots of us hope!

Aw, that's awsome, OP. Enjoy your pregnancy!