Went back to GP today

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And it seems to be postive news. I DID ovulate last month, despite my FSH levels being high. I'm having the day 3 and 21 bloods repeated next month so I will have a better idea then.

I have been so miserable about all of this, so the news has cheered me up. I have told one close friend but not my other friends which makes it quite hard. One of my very dear friends is the sort of person who automatically asks "what's wrong?" if i say I have a doctor's appointment and I don't think she is being deliberately nosy at all but it makes it very awkward. I am going to have to start not saying I am going to the doctor which may or may not mean lying about it.

There isn't really any point to my post. I just wanted to tell someone really.

Oh, and I can't be referred, as you have to have no children and have been trying for a minimum of two years. I forgot to ask about having the AMH test too, but i will be back there in a few weeks so I will ask then. I meant to find out if I could have that on the NHS via the GP, ie without being referred. I haven't started looking for anywhere private yet. I've found an acupuncturist but haven't made contact yet. Bought wheatgrass the other day and have forgotten to start taking it. I tried a bit on the end of a teaspoon and wasn't impressed so I am looking for foods to disguise the taste.

Just found out my mother had an early menopause, and her identical twin had an earlier one (at 35ish). I posted on my other thread that my mother did not have an early menopause, but this is the first I have heard of it. Quite pissed off that they didn't tell me, but I suppose it is their business after all. I will be telling my daughter about this when she gets older so that she can make informed decisions.

I don't have the sort of relationship with my mother where she would be comfortable discussing things like that. I told her I was having trouble conceiving and she seemed genuinely surprised but now it turns out she had started the menopause by the time she was my age so it shouldn't really be a big shock.

I have been saying for ages that I wanted more than two children but not once has either of them mentioned this. And I know my reproductive system is not really their problem, but really. Even when I phoned up specifically to ask her this, my mother kept changing the subject. When I registered at my current GP they asked me all about my family medical history and I couldn't answer any of the questions and they thought I was adopted! Why can't people discuss stuff like this?

And I still haven't taken the wheatgrass!