Can I have my heart back please (and a baby whilst your at it)

[Figaro82]

A year ago today I had my 12 week scan where I found out my baby had died at 10 weeks :(. I have only recently started to feel normal again and it scares me how deeply it affected me. It also scares me that I am still trying, but not a sniff of a BFP since. My heart aches so much to be a mummy :(. Im about 2 dpo and if there is no BFP at the end of it then we will be giving up trying for 6 months as we will be planning a wedding and tbh I need a break from this. Keep your fingers crossed please for me ladies :)

figaro I am so sorry to hear that, its heartbreaking and there are lots of people on here who have been through similar. Have you had any investigations as you have now been trying for a year?

I remember the feeling of longing and the deep pain very very well. There is a lovely thread on here called 'Just MC, ready to try again' where you will find a lot of women in a similar situation. We have all had low moments and there is always someone to pick you up again. Wishing you every success this month and if not then a lovely ironic 'we were not really trying' BFP during your months off.

Farfallarocks, Thanks for the reply :). Had my bloods done and they were ok and awaiting a scan date. A part of me really hopes that when we do stop trying to plan our wedding that I will get my bfp. It wouldn't be the best timing but we would be so happy :)

So sorry to hear this story. There's another new thread here about conceiving when you've given up hope. A wedding to organise will certainly take your mind off it, whether or not you conceive is another question but definitely concentrating your mind on something else for a few months I think will do you the world of good. Also getting some investigations done is a good idea - think of it in terms of getting yourself sorted out for post wedding-conception and you never know what will happen in the meantime. Best of luck.