Hello ladies,
I'm hope you're not rolling your eyes as I really do need your words of wisdom.
Basically, me and partner of 3 years have a daughter each, when we got together we didn't want more children but surprise surprise I changed my mind. It's been pretty much consuming said mind since about a year and a half ago.
My partner feels he has compromised by changing his mind to agreeing to more children, but that I must also compromise by waiting. This conversation was 6 months ago and he asked I wait a year so August is the goal in mind.
I reluctantly agreed, as I felt i had little choice, but since then it has been regularly brought up by me because I want nothing more than to be at home raising our family. I have tried so bloody hard to shut up and accept its not that long to wait, but every time I come on my period or a friend announces she is pregnant it ends up in me pissing him off by bringing it up AGAIN.
He thinks by doing so, I am showing his wishes are less important than mine.
I don't see it that way. I'm bringing it up because it is making me jealous and miserable and he is my partner and has shown me with his love that I can and should share my feelings with him.
I hate causing negativity between us. And I wish I could just shut up and be patient, but it eats me up inside. I am close to tears every time I come on my period, whenever we have sex I am focused on the chance he might change his mind and just - you know- this time. It's ridiculous, and I understand why he gets annoyed with me when I keep pushing him to change his mind.
I don't want to push him away.
Please help me!