mid 30s, TTC #1, 2 years so far, fed up. anyone else?

[CaipirinhasAllRound]

Just wondering how many of us there are in the same boat

meant ro say 'shouldnt conceive easily' doh

I'm glad you've said that about acupuncture. I'm very sceptical and I think I'd be going into it thinking "this isn't going to work". Going for a massage tomorrow with a spa voucher I got through work so hopefully that will do something towards relaxing me.

Good news mother! Bet you were pleased to hear that.

Thanks for the welcome

yep, proper chuffed may bd to celebrate

brightside definitely time for a new Dr! She sounds infuriating. You really need someone in your corner, I'm on to my 4th Dr and 3rd clinic - I've agonised about changing each time (except for the first time after they totally mishandled one of my miscarriages) but never looked back. We have such a relatively short time and it's all so pressured, it's so important to fight for the care you deserve - hard to find the energy sometimes but so worth it. Good luck!
notnow sorry to hear about the witch's late appearance - hate it when she screws around like that. But bloody well done on staying do strong - I'm pathetic, even after all this time, I'm one day late and I'm practically decorating the nursery!! Tips please on how I could be less mental (and then disappointed). What NHS tests do I have ahead?
mother BD to celebrate?! You really are new to this game aren't you?! Most/all of us here are longterm ttc-ers (1/2/3 years+). My husband suggested BD this morning to 'get it out the way' and that actually sounded quite romantic to me!! Warped!

notnow tests do you have ahead? Sorry Freudian slip - clearly 'me' obsessed & not having a productive day...

Haha, lesley we do still have some fun sex which is quite nice and we did BD yday using conceive plus which was errrm interesting it's nice as I'm only CD8 so am not in full shaggin mode yet, as of sunday we are in full baby making mode lol.

I have a question and wondered if you guys could help me, as you now I went to the docs yesterday for my bloods results, he said everything was normal, including my progesterone levels...phew. He sees no reason why I shouldn't conceive fairly easily, he suggested using OPKs as I have slightly irregular periods normally somewhere better 26-29 days, which I started using last month. I usually have very light periods though, usually 2 - 4 days, with (sorry for TMI) very few clots, I think they seem light to me as I am used the heavy withdrawal bleeds you get when on the pill. Do any of you ladies know if light periods can be a negative sign?

Mother, I don't know whether it's a bad sign or not, but my periods are very light too and similar to what you describe and I'm a reproductive retard.

Lesley, tests ahead are quite same old same old bloods - FSH, LH and E2 tomorrow, then immunes and ovarian reserve on Tuesday, then HIV and Hep B and C on Thurs. The NHS consultant is going to book me in for a laparoscopy and hysteroscopy hopefully in March so we're pushing back the IVF until that's done now. I feel very lucky to have those on the NHS but also quite...well...whingy about more waiting.

I'm guessing that BD is a euphemism for sex somehow, although I can't work out what it stands for. We had some quite nice BD over Christmas when I was pretty sure there was no way we could get pregnant so didn't care, but normally when we're in the zone the most romantic thing I hear is 'I'm knackered - if you want it, hop on, but I'm not moving!'

This is a good read ladies:

vagendamag.blogspot.co.uk/2012/12/in-pursuit-of-babies.html?m=1

Hope you're all ok this evening

BD = baby dance

Hi all hope you had a nice christmas.

New year and time to start all over again! I'm waiting to hear back from my consultant about where we go next. I've had a couple of really crap cycles where I had really heavy bleeding:( this is unusual for me, went to GP who said it was just my hormones but now I have this stupid irrational fear that I'm going through an early menopause, I'm hoping that the clinic will suggest to check my hormone levels again as its been 18 months since I last had them checked. Is it just me who goes through these crazy thoughts?

notnow I had a lap as the HSG failed because I have a narrow cervical opening and they could not insert the catheter. The lap was fine and I only have 2 small scars, the worst thing about it was the bloated belly I had for a couple of days. I think the time to recover depends very much on what they find, I had a friend who was off work for 2 weeks but I only needed 4 days. Also I had to phone to make an appointment and thought it would take about 3 months but they offered me a short notice appointment in just 3 weeks.
Anyhow so fed up with all this ttc that I think we are going to book a trip away in March and have a break from it before all our money gets drained away with IVF.
Sorry for this :( post I'm just feeling a bit f**ked off with my crappy body.
Xx

Pomatron Sorry you're having a bad day. Definitely book to go away somewhere. A change of scenery always does you good. I'm having the same irrational thoughts about early menopause but for the opposite reason. My periods seem to be lighter and lighter each month. In fact, I may actually mention it to the next doctor I see ........

Baby Dancing ??!! WTF !! I didn't realise it meant that either. Thought it was 'Bedroom Department' or something (which - thinking about it - is equally as weird). God, we have long lost any romance in our relationship. More a case of getting it over with as quickly as possible before Eastenders is on ......

Anyhow girls - hope you all have a good weekend.

xx

missbrightside - it's a toss up before putting it off until we go to bed and then we're too knackered and can't be arsed or having to arrange when to do it around eating etc. Not romantic in the slightest and I reckon in our case BD would stand for bend over (worked in my head, not so much written down). Actually, since we've started down this long IVF road we've been rubbish at doing it, mainly my fault, I just can't get excited by the thought of sex....

pomatron - I have days like that. I try and act super chilled out and 'we'll just have amazing dinner parties and go travelling lots ha ha ha' but it really pisses me off

notnow - I had an HSG, was one of the first and only tests my consultant arranged before referring us for IVF. No-one has ever mentioned the hyster-thingy (can't remember what it's called and would need to click back a page to see) to me, no idea what it is

hi lesley, hope you're ok and enjoying the sun. We're due snow this weekend

Mother - you're obviously welcome on this thread but we're a knackered old grumpy lot (sorry ladies!) who might make getting pregnant sound completely impossible so don't pay too much attention to our woes. Maybe you just need a bit more time? I think the average for people to get pregnant naturally is a year or something, more than you'd think anyway

hello to everyone else I've missed

Still nothing to report here. Still waiting for my period so I can start injecting myself with crazy hormones. Currently on CD40-something

ooh just got interrupted by the doorbell and people wanting to know if I thought there was a creator... bugger off

I yearn for someone to come to the door and ask me about my feelings about our saviour, just so that I could vent my rage on someone who would definitely turn the other cheek! (I once pretended to be a nutter to the poor man who came to offer me cable TV and told him that I couldn't have wires into the flat because that's how the devil gets in, but that's another story...)

I'm not doing anything called bloody 'baby dancing'. Last time I tried dancing with DH he headbutted me in the face. W T fuck, as Malcom Tucker would say.

Caip, apparently there's some (not lots of) evidence that a hysteroscopy in the cycle before IVF can help implantation. It's basically a fibre optic camera up the fanny with a saline solution washout. It's intended to have a good look around inside but it's something to do with the water that makes the uterine lining more receptive to implantation. It's an add-on to the lap and dye in a 'while you're down there' sort of way. X

Was at a friend's wedding once and another friend was dancing with her boyfriend. she was doing some drunk high kicks and he caught one of her legs, intending to try and be funny and make her hop a bit, and she fell over and broke her arm

Thanks for the info, too late for me as we start on my next cycle, are you going to try and get it done?

Got a booking for 27 March, so quite a long wait but worth it for the rule out of any long hidden nasties - I like Lesley's description of it as 'the gold standard' of diagnostics so was sold on that basis! (Very scientific)

Really feel for you with a 40 day cycle when you're waiting. That sucks.

Sorry you're having a bad day, Pomatron. I'm sure tomorrow will be better; I'd bet a hundred pound that we're all pretty good at blocking things out in the name of sanity most of the time. Chin up.

I do wonder if I will ever feel passion in 'that' way for my DH again, this baby thing is more PJs and Slippers than sexy undies and certainly not dancing in any kind of way! Who came up with BD anyway, how stupid.
I have decided that I am going to book a holiday this weekend, that will def make me feel better :)
xx

Do it - somewhere warm or something active?

Hi Not no, it will probably be somewhere warm but hopefully active also... although I could be tempted into somewhere cold, such as Canada :)

Hope you all had lovely weekends. Mine seemed to get taken over by housework, chores & family commitments. I think I might go on strike next weekend!
Have you managed to book somewhere pomatron?
Well done on making your appointment notnow - good to get it in the diary, gets u one step closer.
caprihinhas any sign of your period yet? Is this your first round of ivf? Hope it goes nice & smoothly. We need a change of luck on this thread!
Xxx

If it makes you feel any better Lesley my weekend was very similar to yours - and so that's why I have today made the monumental decision to invest in a steam cleaner ! (crazy I know)

I actually quite enjoy cleaning (honestly, I get a great deal of satisfaction from a gleaming clean and tidy home !!) - but I do resent only having time to do it during the weekend ...... (Not sure how a steam cleaner is going to change this - but hey ho !)

Hope everyone else had a wilder one !!!!

xxx

PS : I'm not sure how I noticed it but I've just seen that we have missed our thread birthday. One yesterday. But then I realised that it was started on Friday the 13th !!! Maybe that's what's doomed us ??!!! But on a more positive note I actually think that 13 is going to be our lucky number so maybe it was just setting the tone for things to come ....... !!

Happy thread birthday everyone!

Now, back to more important matters: what kind of cleaner, Brightside, and will it do the cooker hood?

happy thread birthday!
no wild weekends here, I painted 2 window frames, a fireplace and the skirting.
Lesley am spotting but nothing more yet. we started the 1st attempt in Nov but the down regging drugs made we develop loads of cysts so we had to stop. We're doing a short protocol this time do straight in with the injections

we are definitely going somewhere warm if it doesn't work!

Hello!

Happy Thread Birthday!

I'm fed up, TTC I just realised for 18 months (does it count if we've only been actively trying for 7 cycles and not preventing for 18 months? Doctor seems to think so ) and in my mid-30s - can I join?

I feel like a right grumpy arse today (sorry) and wanted to find a place to hide with folks like yourselves. I find this whole process of TTC perhaps the most frustrating thing in the world. I can't seem to get the annoying childlike 'I wish it was my turn. When's it gonna be my turn?' voice out of my head. It's driving me crazy. What do you guys do to ward it off?

P.S. I'm really very nice and friendly really. See?

Hello Bearface - you are very welcome to join us. I share your pain. It's the uncertainty of knowing how long this torture is going to go on for - or indeed if it will ever end - that is the worst thing. I'm always really busy but despite this have now got to a point where I almost constantly think of TTC. So no good advise how to get those voices out of your head ..... !! (sorry - really not helpful !)

NotNow It's a Polti. An Italian make. Sold in John Lewis (albeit that didn't buy it from them) so that was a good enough recommendation for me. If it lives up to the hype then it will clean EVERYTHING. Floors, tiles, COOKER HOODS, the oven, the mattress, curtains, upholstery, taps, your car, your bicycle ... the list goes on. I've only ordered it tonight so hopefully will have it for next weekend. I will report back !!

Hello to everyone else. Caiphirinas Fingers crossed for you for the next few days.

xx

Immunes tests and ovarian reserve test today. My God, but the phlebotomist was stabby! Both arms, both sore. Very small stuff in the grand scheme of things but...ouchie!