first cycle clomid, didn't ovulate and no idea why, so disappointed and don't know what to think

[highlove]

Hello, am hoping someone might be able to offer any advice/wisdom/gin. Sorry this is a long tale...

I am on my first clomid cycle, 50mg days 2-6. Previous blood tests have indicated I ovulate on my own although my cycles are irregular - 26-40 days - and I spot for anything up to a week before my period arrives. I was until recently using OPKs/CBFM which indicated ovulation, thought the CBFM didn't always go peak, sometimes only going high. I wasn't too worried and the consultant put me on Clomid to make sure things were regular, to ensure I ov'd every month and to try and do something about the spotting, rather than because he didn't think I ov'd at all. I don't have PCOS (have had scans and a recent lap confirming this) and although I'm slightly overweight, BMI is just under 28 so I don't think that should be having an impact.

I was being scanned as it's the first cycle and all seemed good -good lining and had one 17mm follicle (plus a few smaller ones on each side) which when I went back three days later had gone...so we presumed I had ov'd and were glad we'd got in copious amounts of enforced and not terribly romantic shagging...

7 DPO progesterone has come back today at 6.4 (I'm in the UK so that's in whatever the UK units are) so I didn't ovulate. I'm now totally confused. I knew we might not get pg first go with the Clomid. - or even at all - but it didn't occur to me for a minute I might not ov, since I thought I was at least some of the time before.

I'm now feeling totally gutted - I was convinced this was our month. Over the weekend (so what we thought was 7/8 DPO) I had some serious Af-type cramping and two isolated incidents of very light, pale pink spotting - saw it when wiping and obsessively looking, that was it, didn't last. NO spotting since and it was completely different to my usual pre-AF spotting. So I of course took it to be implantation cramps and bleeding. Add in some milky/clear CM that looked quite like EWCM for the last few days which I thought could also be a good sign. Oh and I was/am convinced my nipples are bigger and sensitive, though appreciate that might be me getting carried away..

I'm so confused - I don't know why it didn't work and am now really worried about what's wrong with me. Am having nightmares of premature ovarian failure (I'm 32) going round in my head, though my consultant has always said my ovaries are "lovely" from the scans and my FSH results (a year old now, mind you) are fine.

And I'm also just incredibly disappointed - I was completely convinced it had happened for us this month and this nightmare was over. Not sure what all these symptoms were about? All I want is a baby, us to have a family and I'm so confused about why it's just not happening and so frightened it never will.

So, in short - any ideas anyone why I might now have ov'd? And anyone experienced the same and gone on to get a good result?

Sorry this is so long. Thanks.

Of course in the last line there I meant might NOT have ov'd.

My GP told me most women have at least one anovulatory cycle a year. It could just be totally crappy coincidence? I don't know much about clomid sorry but that's just what I wondered. I really hope next month things improve. Might be with seeing your GP for some reassurance.

Hi highlove, I'm really sorry you've had such a tough experience. There was someone on these threads I read yesterday who got pg even though opk's said she hadn't ov'd so don't despair just yet. I also have always spotted before my periods, its very distressing and exhausting! I've noticed some improvements after having regular accupuncture, and following a traditional Chinese medicine regime, have you tried any of that kind of thing?? Best of luck.

I'm so sorry to hear you didn't ovulate. I am on my first month of clomid too so I can imagine the disappointment. Have you got a follow up appointment with your consultant to discuss the results? S/he might suggest going up to 100mg- for some women it just takes that much. There are 2 women on the Clomid thread (I've just posted on it, should be at the top) who have gone up to 100mg and then got their BFPs so maybe it will just take a higher dosage for you.

Good luck.

Hi everyone, thanks for the responses. Feeling a bit calmer about it all today but still totally gutted, with all the symptoms I really thought we'd done it this month...in fact I'm still trying to convince myself that the progesterone blood result of 6.4 (the evidence of no ov) was a mistake and it should be 6.4, or something..

So, fingers crossed for 100 then.

Thanks and good luck all x