I'm mainly a lurker (because I'm socially inept) but am daring to step out of the shadows because I simply can't voice any of this in rl. I tried, but couldn't speak for crying. Dh and I have been ttc #2 for exactly 1 yr this month. I have pcos and haven't seen af since March. That doesn't mean a bfp is impossible, ds was conceived after no af for 18 months. But recently I have been feeling different. My breasts are huge (especially the left. Why oh why? I look like I'm hiding balloons under my top and one has deflated slightly.) Cramping that lasted a few days. Slight bulge in the right area. Lethargy, especially when exercising. I'm a complete emotional wreck. Back ache.... the list goes on.
We decided today was test day, so first thing... well, you know. I didn't think I saw anything, but dh is convinced he saw a faint line (would only be about 2 weeks gone so very early to test, I know). I have called my doctor and she has booked me in for a blood test.
I don't want to go. I mean, I do, of course. But I am dreading such a definitive bfn. I never have been a glass half full girl. I'm sitting here, getting more and more worked up and panicked. Someone, please, talk some sense into me. In the meantime, I shall drag my sorry self to the shops.