I'm one day late, managed to totally convince myself I was pregnant, so took a test which was BFN and now I feel so utterly disappointed!! I feel like such an idiot, I promised myself I would wait until Wednesday before even considering a test. Yesterday I went to the loo about a million times, to keep checking if AF had started, and even dreamed about it last night. Am I loosing my mind?
We conceived my first DS after 3 months of kind of trying, and the month he was conceived, we'd kind of decided to stop trying as thought maybe it wasn't the right time afterall, so he was a bit of a surprise. This time, came off pill in November, had weird irregular periods until February (never had that before) but since then been regular as clockwork, which is why I was so convinced this time.
I absolutely know I have no right to complain, I've been very lucky, and we're not even actively trying (only did it 3 times last month - once at very end of period and other two in the week before my period due - so knew wasn't likely to happen), so why do I feel so gutted??! I've even started to worry that its never going to happen, and that I had it too easy the first time and didn't appreciate it enough.
How can I stop obsessing about getting pregnant and just chill out and let it happen? Any advice welcome!