Oh help! Work / life dilemma. Emotions flying!

[LauraSmurf]

Ok I have got myself into quite a pickle.
3 of my closest work colleagues know i have been ttc for a while. I thought this month was a really good chance of working. On friday morning i found some blood when i peed, this is usually the start of my period.

I was an emotional wreck, this all happened at 7.45, i had an 8.30 meeting so i had to be there. I headed into work and as soon as i got there my boss (who knew i was ttc) ask how i was and so of course i fell apart and bawled all over her. She sent me home, told most staff it was a tummy bug, but told my other 2 colleagues the truth(i said it was ok)

THey have been so so supportive and kind.

BUT i haven't really had any blood since then (not unusual for 2 days) but now it's tuesday and i still haven't bled again. I did a test and it says im pregnant!

First of all!! WHAT!!! COuld this all be wrong?
Why did i bleed on friday (was brown old blood, not pinky implantation bleed)
Second, what do i do about my colleagues? DO i tell them i was wrong? When do i tell them?

I am feeling so happy / guilty / anxious.

In short AHHHHHHHHH!

Congratulations! I think tell them. They know you are ttc, it sounds like they would be supportive if you had a miscarriage (which afaik is the main reason not to tell people) and if they know about why you went home then I think they will only be happy for you now whereas later they might do the maths and wonder what was going on.

First of all false positives are rare so it's more than likely you are pregnant - congratulations :)
WRT the bleeding, I don't think a small amount of bleeding in early pregnancy is particularly rare, especially if it's old blood. I had this at about 5 weeks and took myself off to the doctors in a panic but no-one was remotely concerned. Keep an eye on it - you can always see your GP if you are worried.
As for your colleagues, it's lovely that they've been so nice and supportive but don't feel that you owe them explanations. What you tell them at this stage is entirely up to you. Most people wait 'til after their first scan before telling, just in case there's a problem but whether you do this is your decision. You have nothing to feel guilty about - I'm sure your colleagues will be delighted that you were wrong:)

Who says implantation bleed is pink?

I had pretty much exactly what you describe when pg with DD2 and I've always assumed it was an implantation bleed.

Thank you all.

I am still sitting reeling from the shock. My DH and I were so so gutted on friday. I never intended to tell anyone before my first scan (in my hypothetical pregnancy, oh i have had so many of them!) But when i went in on friday i just fell apart! So im still scared it's not true. I will test again in the morning. I have a GP appointment on fri (other issues) so i think i'll wait til then. Then tell them on monday!

But can it be true?
I just don't believe it.
I keep thinking i am having period pains, but after years of v painful period, adhesions and endometriosis, it could just be in my head.