Apologies in advance, this is a complete feeling sorry for myself post but I just need to vent.
I am very lucky to have one lovely DD conceived very easily 6 years ago and despite trying (oh god how I'm sick of trying), I've never had so much of evap line on a pee stick since 
2 years ago we started down the IVF route as it turned out DH had a lowish count and despite 3 attempts and one frozen (which didn't bloody survive the defrost
)we are still at square one except 16K lighter in the pocket.
To rub salt into the open wounds 3, YES 3 good friends, 2 of which I've been the main source of support for have been through IVF and got lucky first time 
I was surprised how hard the last announcement hit me, it was like a kick in the guts.
I feel really guilty for feeling crap when I know how lucky I already am but at the same time am so p*ssed off that we wasted so much money and have nothing to show for it.
We now hove to make the decision over if we try for one very final cycle but I just feel as though it probably isn't going to work and that I don't want to tell these friends for support in case it doesn't and I'll feel even more of a failureIts already so hard now to be with them as they seem to have forgotten that I'm still struggling whilst they are blooming.
On the surface everything with our treatment appears fine (including basic immunes)I just don't get why it works for some and not others. Thanks for reading the rant, think I'll make myself a 
.... decaff of course..