TTC#1 and jealous

[laughinglemons]

TTC#1 for over a year, 35, married and thinking this might be the worst time of my life. I am surrounded by friends and family with babies / children. My husband has a pregnant colleague which is making me feel sooo jealous (because i irrationally think he'll know everything about pregnancy).

When we first started trying I was apprehensive about the whole thing (especially being heavily pregnant, giving birth and looking after a tiny baby) but now none of that bothers me.

Please tell me I am not alone. It is getting to the stage where I don't want to visit friends and have started sending the gift online.

I feel so horrible.

You aren't alone.lots of us here are in similar positions. Have you been to your Gp to start investigations? also are you monitoring your own fertility by charting?
I'm 29, been ttc for over year. My blood tests came back ok, Dh waiting for appt to provide his sample! You're welcome to join our thread:
www.mumsnet.com/Talk/conception/1110014-Feck-off-with-your-babydust-The-hut-of-gl-doom-home-of-inadequate-reproduction
where lots of us are in similar circumstances. I've found the realisation that I'm not alone very helpful.

laughing You're not alone, 34 married, TTC for 3 1/2 years and just about given up hope.

Don't beat yourself up about feeling horrible - it's normal in this situation, just feels odd bcs you've spent years trying not to be envious and jealous of people bcs we're not supposed to, but reality check, this is tough (like we don't know) and those feelings are natural. Totally understand about your feelings of apprehensiveness too.

Hope you are getting some support from GP, and also from here, also would suggest looking at the advice on Zita West or Marilyn Glenville's websites/books. They can help with the physical side, but I think more importantly (well for me anyway) the emotional side.

Good luck, and take care of yourself and DH

xx

Laughing Just wanted to add that there are loads of us in this situation as well. Am 31 and am onto cycle 17 of trying - had all the tests done and they have all come back normal so just sat here thinking why they feck is the sperm not meeting the egg!

Have you started speaking to your GP about getting your bloods done etc? Its really worth it - the sooner you know if anything is out of kilter you can start to get it sorted and if not at least it would put your mind at ease. I think the recommendations are that if you are 35 and have been trying for 6 months you should get yourself tested.

It's really hard when people keep announcing pregnancies or you get invites to christenings or parties. I think its also important to allow yourself to be excused from such events from time to time as it can really be hard. It's sad but I have found myself doing that a bit. I think the pages here are great as you hear about so many couples whoare in the same situation and makes you feel less isolated/alone in the process as well as get good advice.

Good luck x