WARNING: Feeling very sorry for myself!
With dd1 and dd2 we fell second month of trying. With both miscarriages with fell the first month of trying. I'm 36 years old and this is month 2. I thought that all I had to worry about was keeping little one. Now I've gotta have to worry that I'm past it? Just want to say bugger and go kick somein!
Somewhere inside I knew it wouldn't be easy this time round (not that it was with 1 and 2 as both pregnancies that were succussful were hard work) but I soooo wanted more. My gp tells me I'm being selfish. Am I? I could get sooo caught up in a) falling pregnant and then b) carrying to term that it could hurt my girls. Am I stupid/selfish to want more? They're so wonderful, I'm so stunned by them, I just want to keep going.
Like I said, 3 glasses of wine (cos it doesn't really matter at the mo now!) I don't suppose I'm being terribly rational
Sorry.